Lalisa Manoban
The dinner ended with a lot of teases and questions about me and Kooks relationship. How it was started and how it happened because they also sensed that we weren't that closed and we dont talk much with each other. Jungkook told them the story excluding the part where I was being a bitch to him. He didn't made me look bad to them and I was so grateful, that I felt like crying and the guilt washed over me because I still have a little doubt with him. The words of Jennie unnie really gave an impact to me, can't you blame me she knew Jungkook more than I know him that's why I'm kind of believing what she had been saying.
"Hey" jungkook said while he was steering the wheel. "I'm sorry again Lis" He kept on apologizing to me because of the unanswered call. I told him the reason why I called it was because I wanted to go with him to our dinner but unfortunately he didn't answered it so I ended up going with Rosie coz I didn't want to be late in our routine gathering. Rosie asked where was Jungkook and I told her that he had something to do first. White lies can't kill and also because I really didn't have any idea where he was.
"It's really okay Kook" yeah I'm actually fine now because everything was cleared and I heard positive things about him from my friends. I guess Jungkook is really not that bad.
"You're not thinking that I was making out with another girl, right?" he asked carefully
"Are you?" I asked curiously but not judging him while fidgeting the hem of my shirt.
"Of course NO!" he answered as quick as the light of speed. I giggled on his funny reaction.
"I believe you Kook. You're so funny" I made the conversation light and I heard him sighed or like releasing the tense he was holding. I think he felt relieved. .
"Lis" I hummed. He held my hand and looked at me a bit then back to the road.
"Whats the matter Kook?" I asked curiously. Is something bothering him? I caressed the hand his holding me. We stopped somewhere. I was looking at him for about a minute until he took a deep breath and sighed. He looked at me and there I saw a bit of sadness in his bambi eyes. "Are you okay?" I asked worriedly. I don't know what's running on his mind.
"I know you're still doubting me" he hardly said and my eyes widen in his sudden opening up. I'm lost for words. "I'm sorry if I can't assure you about what I feel for you. and I couldn't control of what people might say. I understand that you still holding back"
"Kook.."
"I'm not perfect. I'm not the best in the market. I'm not the best choice and I know I'm not the one you deserve" lowering my head shaking it for not approving with his insecurities. "But I want to be perfect for you, be the best of your choice and will do my everything to be deserve by you" He held my chin up so we could see each others. he wiped my tears that I didn't know was there "But I have only one wish" I looked at him with anticipation "Can you trust me?" he hold me with his gaze.
"I'm sorry if I made you feel like this. If I'm being honest I had doubt you" I saw his jaw clenched and closed his eyes. "Because I'm insecure Kook" I looked sideways. "I am the one who is not the best in the market. At some point in time, you'll find me boring. There's a lot of pretty girls out there that will be perfect for you. I'm hard-headed. I don't want to be clingy but sometimes I wanted too, to show the world that I am your girlfriend but you might think I'm annoying." I couldn't tell him all because I still have something to reserve for myself. I have to save myself from embarrassment.
"Look at me" he said firmly while holding my shoulders.
"You don't have to be insecure. You are so beautiful especially in my eyes. I had never set my eyes to a girl like this. You being hard headed is a challenge for me so I will not be boring" he chuckled and I pouted. "and why would I complain if my girlfriend is clingy, I would love that for sure" he smiled at me showing his bunny teeth. He really know how to melt my heart. "I don't care about the other girls because I only care for you" I couldn't take it anymore the strong feelings I felt, the butterflies on my stomach had already explode that made me lip bite to control myself for blushing and giggling.
"Oh, don't do that" he complained resting his head at backrest.
"Do what?"
"biting your lips, I might kiss you right now" Oh, no. I think I'm totally red right now. Jungkook wanted to kiss me, do I actually wanted too? "Don't worry I will not force you to..." I think I had lost my mind. I had kissed him but for a slight second like my lips just touch his lips. He looked taken aback. Those big bambi eyes looking at me. I avoid his gaze looking at the window.
"Sorry. I-I..." what should I say??? did I do the right thing? I felt his hand on my cheek and turning it to face him. "you don't need to apologize but baby let me show you the real kiss is. I felt his mouth on me. he closed his eyes. Jungkook is kissing me!!! and my body reacted to its own. I closed my eyes and my lips moved with him like its already knew what to do. So this is the real kiss. He stop and rest his forehead on mine and still my eyes were closed. I slowly open my eyes and his gaze at me while his both hands holding my face. He pecked me. "You know I had dream of this" We both smiled. "I like you a lot"
"I really really like you too Kook and I trust you".
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Thank you for patiently waiting. :)
