Human

no place like home

It was Christmas break and Ron Weasley was sitting patiently in a compartment waiting for his friends to get back. Draco popped his head in smiling.

"Hey can I sit here?" Ron nodded and Draco slid next to Ron.

"Why aren't you sitting with your slytherin friends?" Ron asked watching as Draco played with the rings that adorned his dainty fingers.

"Pansy can get to be a lot sometimes just thought I'd escape for a bit" they compartment door opened and Hermione's face dropped at the sight of Draco.

"What are you doing here?" She glared at him with her hands on her hips. Ron swore he heard her growl a bit.

"Relax Mionie hes cool" Ron smiled and Hermione gave a tense smile back nodding a bit.

"Yeah I am cool never forget it" Draco smirked and leaned back in his chair.

"Thanks" Hermione said her eyes glued to the floor.

"What?"

"I said thanks for helping Ronald out" Ron smiled feeling himself blush a bit and Draco nodded saying it wasn't a big deal. "God where is Harry?" Hermione said after a few moments of awkward silence. And as if on cue Harry and Cedric came through the door holding hands. Ron felt Draco stiffen up next to him and Ron gave Draco a sympathetic smile. Ron and Draco have been hanging out a lot and Ron knows how bad he's got it for Harry.

"Hey guys we're almost there its going to be a great break!" Harry cheered happily beaming at everyone even Draco and Ron was glad Harry didn't comment on it. The finally got onto the platform again and Ron and all the other Weasleys ran back to Arthur and Molly. Cedric and Harry went over by James and Regulus, and Draco and Lilly went over to Sirius and Remus. They were all planing on going back to the burrow but separate greetings were in order.

"Oh there's my beautiful girl" Molly cupped her hands around Rons face and he resided the urge to pry himself away from her. She wasn't exactly his favorite parent at the moment. Arthur kinda at least made an effort to try and remember to call him a he. Molly gave him a kiss on the cheek and then went on to the next child. Hermione appeared behind Ron smiling at him.

"My mum said that I can stay with you guys this Christmas!" She grabbed hold of his hand and stuck close to him the rest of the trip to the burrow. It was nice and it made Ron feel all warm inside he liked the feeling very much.

Ron was exhausted not physically though he was emotionally exhausted. He spent the whole day being called a she by his mother and any other adult who wasn't in his family. Like a lady on the train station gave Ron a book that apparently fell out of his bag and said "you dropped this ma'am" Ron turned red grabbed the book mumbled a thanks and sped up. He was tired of being misgendered. He took out the pack of cigarettes that he bought at the train station when no one was looking, and went outside. He sat down if the grads with his back to a tree. A deep sigh was pulled from his feminine lips before he placed the cigarette in between them and lighting it with his wand. He took a long drag and rested his head on the oak tree. His eyes fluttered closed as he listened the the sounds around him. He was calm it was relatively nice outside so he could stay out here all day if he wanted. He heard yelling in the distance it sounded like Harry. His eyes opened as he stood up to scan the area for his friend. Ron's green eyes flickering everywhere before he caught sight of the boy. He was with Cedric and they both appeared to be mad. Which was weird they were all cute in the train. He lifted the cigarette back up to his mouth as he stared at the couple making sure their argument didn't get out of hand. He knew Harry could be a little dramatic at times and he didn't want their argument to take a wrong turn. 

"Ronniekins what is this?" Fred said grabbing the cigarette from out of Ron's mouth.

"You're gonna get in so much trouble" George added his smirk was taunting Ron but Ron only rolled his eyes.

"Can't wait to tell mum what a horrible habit you picked up Rowana" George glared at Fred and Fred turned red realizing what he said. "Ron I meant Ron sorry" he tried an apologetic grin but Ron waved it off.

"Do whatever the fuck you want assholes" Ron took off back into the Burrow. He flopped onto his bed and muffled his cried into his pillow and tried to block out the rest of the world. He stood up after a while tears still tracking down his face as he rushed to the bathroom locking it behind him. He rummaged through the drawers before finding the box cutter that's his dad brought home one day.

{warning cuties there's some self harm so proceed with caution 🤠}

He sat down on the floor and pulled down his pants. He figured if he cut his thighs it wouldn't be noticeable. He decided to make a cut for every time he was misgendered today. The blade glided across his freckled skin making dark red liquid cascade down his thigh and into the tiled floors. A dreamy sigh escaped his lips once he was done with the first one. He did it a total of seven times and watched himself bleed for a bit. It reminded him he was still here and that he was in fact normal that he was human. Then he healed the cuts to the best of his abilities. He walked back down just in time for dinner.

"Rowana!" Ginny bounded over to Ron and smiled "gosh harry is here isn't he dreamy?" Before Ron could answer she went to find a seat at the table.

"Yeah that's Harry" Ron mumbled taking the seat besides Draco. Hermione sat down on the other side of Ron giving Draco the occasional glare. And so dinner commenced and Cedric ended up going home because of his fight with Harry. Which anyone with eyes could tell that Harry was stricken up about it still. The tears still stained on his cheeks.

"How was your school year so far guys" Molly asked smiling at everyone. Ginny then launched into some story that Ron tuned out.

"But then Rowana had to go a ruin everything she's always ruining my fun" Ginny pouted and Molly frowned.

"Now Ginny Rowana is head girl so she has to stop your silly pranks." They continued talking about Ron as if he wasn't even there. So he simply grabbed his plate and chucked it at a wall. Everyone turned their attention to him as he stood up.

"I do not ruin everything! I am the head BOY. It's part of the gig. BOY DO YOU HEAR THAT MOM BOY NOT GIRL HEAD BOY" Ron marched back up to his room and wallowed in his own self pity surround by blankets. He was half asleep when he heard the door open.

"Sorry about Ginny and Molly Ron. They don't deserve you." She climbed into his bed and Ron instinctively wrapped his arm around her waist pulling her closer.

It'll get more interesting I promise