living a lie | park jisung

8 years old

I've already said i'm gonna make a nct dream fanfic with ships this isn't it but i got this idea and really wanted to do it, i'm gonna start working on the other nct dream fic soon. So yeah hope you like it!

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Jisung always felt a little different. When the other boys in primary school would talk about their crushes on girls in the class. They would talk about how cute or pretty they were. They'd blush whenever their crush talked to them. Of course Jisung found girls cute and pretty, but he never found himself blushing because of them. He thought girls were nice and cute so he wanted to be their friend, he used to mistake that as a crush.

He never would feel his heart race when a girl talked to him, like the other guys would say. Jisung had a couple girl friends. But he never found himself staring at them, caught in that dream like trance. He noticed the other boys would try to be class clowns, to impress the girls. The boys gained confidence hearing girls giggles around the classroom. Jisung never really cared enough to impress girls in his class.

One boy in his class, Seongbin, was very handsome. All the girls had a crush on him. Of course they were only in 3rd grade, so the farthest couples would go was a peck. But Seongbin had a new girlfriend every 2 weeks.

"Seongbin hyung, I saw you holding Sakura's hand at recess." Another boy, Sanhee teased. Jisung saw the faint blush on Seongbins cheeks when Sanhee said this. "Well yeah she's my girlfriend." He said coolly. "You're so lucky, she's the prettiest girl in the third grade! I wish I could date her, don't you wanna Sung?" Jisung was pulled out of his thoughts when all the attention was on him.

He didn't know how to answer, Sakura was very pretty. But he didn't want to date her. He didn't feel that feeling the other boys talked about. But she was the prettiest girl in the third grade, and was very kind too. Why wouldn't he want to date her? Everyone else does.

"Yeah, she's pretty." He said quietly. "Ah don't try to steal my girlfriend Jisung ah." Seongbin joked and placed his hand on Jisungs shoulder. Jisungs cheeks felt warm as he stared at Seongbins face that was so close to him, his breath was caught in his throat. "Don't worry I won't." Jisung said while laughing and Seongbin took his hand off.

   "Maybe i'll steal her from you hyung." Sanhee said with a smirk. "No you can't you're ugly." Seongbin said. Seongbin and Jisung burst out laughing. Sanhee pouted before trying to defend himself. "No i'm not! I'm very attractive."

   "You've never even had a girlfriend." Jisung pointed out. "Neither have you!" he yelled with a smile. "Yeah but that's because Jisungs shy. He's not ugly like you though, look how cute he is!" Seongbin said while pinching Jisungs cheeks. "Stop~" Jisung complained embarrassed, pulling Seongbin's hands away. There was a warm feeling in Jisung chest when Seongbin did that, he didn't understand why.

   "Whatever Sakura is cuter." Sanhee huffed out with his arms crossed.

"I really love her." Seongbin sighed. Sanhee and Seongbin stared at her dreamily. Of course, Seongbin and Sakura broke up a week later.