living a lie | park jisung

2 months later

Jisung doesn't know what to do. Over the past couple months he's noticed it. How something has changed with Chenle. Not with the relationship between them, they're closer than ever. Things have changed with how Jisung feels about Chenle.

Jisung knows he likes Chenle more than a friend now. And it terrifies him. Because it's more than his crush on Lucas. It's not some dumb crush on someone for being attractive. Even though his feeling for Chenle scare him, whenever he's with Chenle he feels the most happy then with anyone else. He loves how Chenle can make him laugh, even when he feels upset. He somehow can always tell what Jisung's feeling.

Maybe it's because they're best friends, or because they've known each other for so long and Chenle just knows his expressions now. Or maybe that's why they're best friends, because Chenle has just always known what to do, what to say. Jisung loved Chenle's personality, his smile, his laugh, his voice, he loved everything about him.

Of course I fucking like my best friend.

"Jisung." Chenle moves his hand in front of Jisung's face, to get his attention. Jisung's face heats up, seeing the person he was just thinking about in front of him. "Oh sorry." Jisung says before looking back down at the lyrics he had to memorize, the blush on his face still clearly evident.

"Why are you blushing Sungie~" Chenle asks in a teasing tone. Of course Chenle has to mess with him. "None of your business." He says, acting annoyed. Jisung goes back to paying attention to the paper in front of him. He could tell Chenle wanted his attention, but he really needed to learn the lyrics. It was hard enough that he was bored out of his mind, but hearing Chenle's voice and seeing the pout on his face made him want to drop everything for the older. But he's not going to do that.

Chenle jumped up on the desk, right next to Jisung's paper. Jisung looked at him suspiciously, to which Chenle just laughed back. "Why are you looking at me like that?" he asked loudly while laughing. "Because I know you're gonna try to do someth– Hey!" Jisung was in the middle of a sentence when Chenle snatched the paper.

Chenle was reading Jisung's rap out loud, in a funny voice. Jisung got up from his chair and went up to Chenle. As he went to take the paper, the other held it up out of his reach. He hated that this desk was so high. Chenle was laughing hysterically as he watched Jisung trying to get the paper, but failing every time. Jisung was getting annoyed and went right up against the desk, between Chenle's legs, and reached for the paper Chenle was holding up, while leaning back.

But his breath caught in his throat, when he realized how close the two were. Jisung was stuck in a trance, staring at every feature on Chenle's face. He's never really gotten a good look at Chenle like this. As Jisung looked into Chenle's eyes, they weren't focused back at his. They were looking down, not moving at all.

Is he looking at my lips?

Jisung's cheeks heated up for the hundredth time that day. Jisung got pulled out of the trance he was in quickly, once he realized how weird the position they were in was and how they were just staring at each other. He grabbed his paper from Chenle's hand, that was holding it very weakly. He backed away and walked out of the room. Before he left he took a quick glance at Chenle, he had a blush on his face, but he also looked confused.