living a lie | park jisung

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Jisung went to go find Chenle.

He checked his room, and saw the boy laying on his bed, playing a game on his phone. He hasn't noticed him yet.

"Lele can we talk?" he asked from the doorway. Jisung immediately wanted to just run away from how shaky his voice sounded.

Chenle looked up shocked. Jisung saw the fear in Chenle's eyes.

"Yeah." he answered. He sat up and shut his phone off, laying it down next to him. Jisung walked over and sat on the bed. There was an awkward silence for a bit, because Jisung didn't know how to start this off.

"I'm sorry." Chenle said.

"Why would you be sorry?" Jisung asked, feeling sad just seeing him like this. Chenle just looked so upset with himself, so disgusted with himself. Jisung couldn't believe he couldn't see this before, instead thinking Chenle was disgusted with him.

"Aren't you disgusted with me? I went way too far with the kiss. I asked you to kiss me and you were probably already uncomfortable by that, then I just went too far. When you ran out of the room I just then realized what I did. I'm sorry that I fucked everything up." Chenle had started to build tears up in his eyes, but they weren't falling yet. Jisung knew he couldn't let Chenle cry.

Jisung gently cupped Chenle's face and turned it towards him.

"I'm not disgusted with you Lele. I never was. I ran out because I thought I pushed things too far, and that you were upset with me. I misunderstood the situation, and it caused you to be disgusted with yourself. I'm sorry for that."

"So you were never disgusted with me, or mad at me?" Chenle asked.

Jisung shook his head. "I told you I thought you were disgusted with me, but I guess we were both wrong." he said with a smile.

"Oh." Chenle said with a laugh, a smile staying on his face after.

"Did the kiss help you figure out if you were bisexual or not?"

"Yeah, even though it turned into such a wreck after, i'm bisexual." Chenle said.

"I'm happy you figured it out. I know how frustrating it is to be confused."

"Yeah. It kind of feels like some weights been lifted off my shoulders since I figured it out." Chenle made gestures to help show what he was talking about, causing Jisung to snicker.

"You seemed to enjoy yourself, when we kissed." Jisung said with a smirk on his face. Jisung felt proud seeing the dark blush appear on Chenle's face.

"Well, I wasn't the only one." Chenle replied smirking as well, staring straight into Jisung's eyes with a newfound confidence. This caused Jisung to blush, and his heart was racing. Jisung knew flirting with Chenle wasn't the best idea, because he liked him. But it didn't seem like Chenle minded.

"I wouldn't mind kissing you again." Chenle said quietly, his voice sounding different then it did before. It sounded hopeful but also nervous.

"Me too." Jisung said quietly.