5SOS One Shots

Strawberry Milkshakes and pinky promises - Ashton Irwin

Dear Ashton,

I hope that one day, you'll find an old picture of me and you'll wonder if I still love strawberry milkshake's more than life it's self.

Remember when we went to the retro 80's style diner, and I asked for a homemade strawberry milkshake, and you asked me why I always asked for a homemade strawberry milkshake, and I told you about how me and my brother always made them together and how it was just a sentimental thing of the past and how I felt that if I didn't order one I felt like a bad sister and that I was ruining mine and my brothers traditions, I always order strawberry and he always ordered chocolate.

Yeah Ashton, I still do...

Or maybe you'll wonder if I still request a pinky promise in order to agree on a deal.

Remember that time when you promised once you got off work, you would buy me ice cream and come straight home to cuddle with me, but I wouldn't hang up the phone until you pinky promised me.

And what about the time when I made you pinky promise never to tell anyone any of my secrets I told you at our late night sleepovers.

Yeah Ashton, I still do...

Or maybe you'll wonder if I remember the time when you set up that note game, where I had to find the notes that eventually led me to you, standing in the treehouse we built in the woods when we were kids.

Yeah Ashton, I still do...

Maybe you'll wonder if I still remember the times we would go out in public and just mess around, like that one time in the cinema and watched a scary film, when we sat right at the back, and threw popcorn at the people in front of us and scared them.

Yeah Ashton, I still do...

Maybe you'll wonder if I still remember that time when we went to the fair and you won me that giant panda teddy, which I named 'patchy paws,' since I wanted to call it 'paws' and you wanted to call it 'patchy.' You'll wonder if I still kiss 'patchy paws' goodnight everyday.

Yeah Ashton, I still do...

Maybe you'll wonder if I still wear your clothes to bed, like that time when I slept in your shirt and then the next morning you were complaining how you couldn't find it and I sat there laughing in front of you, wearing it, it smelt like you, like vanilla mixed with cinnamon.

Yeah Ashton, I still do...

Maybe you'll wonder if I still go into Starbucks, even without you. If I still pretend to have a different name because I don't like my real name. Maybe you'll wonder if in winter I still order a cinnamon, hazelnut and vanilla spice hot cocoa.

Yeah Ashton, I still do...

Or maybe you'll wonder if I'm still insecure about every single thing about myself. Like my tummy, and how I think I'm too fat, how I hate my freckles, how I hate my hair because it never grows quickly enough and it never looks nice.

Yeah Ashton, I still do...

Maybe you'll wonder if I wonder about you...

Well Ashton, the truth is I do and I honestly can't forget you, I mean how could I, your the best thing that ever happened to me, but you know what they say,

'If you love something, set it free, if it come back to you it's yours, but if it doesn't, maybe it was just never meant to be...

Or Maybe you'll wonder if I got somebody new to pinky promise with, somebody new to drink homemade strawberry Milkshakes with, somebody new to play note games with, somebody new to go in Starbucks with. Somebody new to be stupid in public with, somebody new to win me stuffed animals, somebody new to build tree houses with, somebody else's clothes to wear when I want. Somebody new to cuddle up to in the winter, someone else's chest to lay my head against, someone else to comfort me during that time of the month. Maybe you'll wonder if I found somebody new, someone else to tell me that I'm beautiful, someone else to comfort me, someone else to hug me. You'll wonder if I found somebody new to dance with, someone else to sing to me, someone else to jam out in the kitchen with, or someone else to write songs with. What about someone new to play games with, Someone new to build snowmen with, someone new to have snowball fights with, someone new to kiss... Someone new to love with...

Well Ashton, that's the one thing I could never find, somebody new to love.

Love you ash, even though we aren't together anymore, I still love you. I want you to move on though, even if I don't, stay strong, keep your head held high, for your fans, they need you... I need you... I'm sorry

- love Skylar <3 xxxx