5SOS One Shots

Fighting and Letting Go - Calum Hood

^ idk I saw it on tumblr and thought it was cute okay? (And Tiflis quotes and IFSTG)

Ruby's P.O.V

"WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU?" I screamed at him, unable to control my temper. "YOU TOLD ME YOU'D BE HOME BEFORE IT GOT LATE, IT'S 3AM RIGHT NOW CALUM!" I continued to scream at him.

"Baby, -" he tried but stopped when he heard me gasp.

"Were you cheating?" I asked, my voice abruptly smaller and a change of tone. He quickly shook his head.

"No, no babe, of course not, I was with the guys, we were doing rehearsals and we got caught up in the time and then we got hungry so we went out to eat."

"Why do you act like they're so much more important that me?" I asked, my tone slightly accusing.

"What? -" I cut him off again.

"You've seen them all for 5 and a half months Calum, you spent everyday with the guys and now you're home, you can't even spend a WHOLE DAY with ME?"

"No baby, it's not like that -" he tried to explain but I cut him off once more.

"DO I EVEN MEAN ANYTHING TO YOU ANYMORE?" I screamed, hold back the tears as the lump in my throat got bigger and tighter. "I get its your job Cal, honestly I do, but the fact that you can't take a single day off, kills me because it makes me feel like you would rather be with them than your burden of a girlfriend. I know you guys go out every night and get smashed, I see the pictures, you don't think I do, but I see them and I hate seeing you that way, messing your reputation up and hanging around with fans and groupies, which doesn't exactly help my anxiety or low self esteem,"

"Baby, listen to me-" I didn't listen.

"No Calum, listen to me. You need to stop doing this to me, you need to leave, you can't make me fall in love if you don't want me, so please Calum, just go, leave and forget about us, it's for the best." I turned around not baring to face him, I knew I would fall for it if I looked at him.

"Baby," he came up behind me and wrapped his arms around my waist, kissing up and down my neck, nibbling my sweet spot. "Your so hot when you're mad, I want you bad 'Rubes'," he breathed against my neck and I clenched my jaw, shoving his hands of me with a stern "NO."

"Get out Calum." I stated, pointing towards the door.

I said every word slowly, holding the tears back as I slowly guided him to the door.

Once he was out, I shut the door, sliding my back down against it as I let the angry tears flow.

Well... He didn't put up much of a fight.
He didn't love me enough for that.
You need to wait for someone who is strong enough to love you.

I pulled my knees up to my chest and let more tears go as my anger and frustration ran out of my body.

Stop the tears you weak bitch, you're stronger that this.

I stood up and flopped on my bed.
'Get on with life.' I told myself.

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Calum's P.O.V. (Oops sorry)

She just...-
Did she....-
She kicked me out...-

I looked around, before I nodded, confirming my thoughts and beginning to walk in the direction of Ashton's house.

I arrived after a couple of minutes and I knocked on the door, rocking back and forth on my heels as I waited for him to open the door.

He opened the door and I looked up, tears burning in my eyes. He gave me a concerned look and pulled me into the house, heading to the kitchen and sitting at the island and placing me opposite him.

"What's up mate?" He asked, placing a reassuring hand on my shoulder.

"It's Ruby, sh-she kicked me o-out," I said, tears bursting their way through my eyes and down my cheeks.

"She what? Oh shit, Cal, you need to calm down for me okay... Please, we need to talk about Ruby," he told me, rubbing my back and I leaned over with my head in my hands, resting on my legs. I tried to stop the tears, but I was full on sobbing and I couldn't choke any understandable words out.

"Calum, seriously, you need to calm down, I need to know what you did or said to her, please Calum, she might be in trouble, you know she's done things before, you know what she's like, a lot of thought he go through that head of here and I don't want you to have triggered any passing ideas..." He trailed off, not wanting to actually say what he was talking about, but I knew anyway.

"I- I don't want to- to loose her," I sniffed, wiping my eyes and not wanting to look my girlfriend's best friend in the eyes. I knew how close they were, he's the one who introduced me to her, he knew lots more about her, he knows how deep she really is.

"It terrifies you, doesn't it? It scares the living shit out of you to love someone like her. Someone who is so much of a storm. Some days she's stronger than you. Most days her voice is louder. She'll say "no" once and mean it. If you don't listen she'll kick you out of her bed and out of her life. Maybe she'll soften for you, between the quiet hours where the sun is just barely touching the earth, she'll be all quiet, breathing skin and open mouthed caresses. Maybe once in a while she'll gentle herself into elastic and you'll press open mouthed kisses to her skin without worrying about the burn. Stop living for those moments where she's quieter. They'll be rare. The thing is, most of the time, she'll be on fire. You'll have to carry the ashes of your arguments back with you, you'll have to expect that she'll fight you and love you at the same time. It'll feel like loving a hurricane. So maybe, maybe you're thinking that it'll be easier if you just left. Maybe you'll find a better one. Know this: if she asks you to stay, she will do it once. If you slam the door shut behind you she will shrug her shoulders, wrap herself in her own fight and wait for someone strong enough to love her. If you come back, months later, empty handed, she'll kiss your cheek and shake her head and say 'you lost me.'" Ashton spoke, more tears springing to my eyes as he spoke the hard reality about the girl I'm in love with.

Truth is, she is a storm, she's hard to love, trust me. But if you give her the time, love and effort, it gets easier and she begins to soften up for you and you begin to teach her how to love again after the last asshole broke her heart. I didn't want to be one of those assholes, not now, not ever...

"Ash..." My voice broke as I continued speaking, "I-I ca-can't loose h-her... I lov-love her..."

"Tell her that then mate..." Ashton patted me on the back, pulling me into a hug.

"She-she doesn't wa-want me b-back..." I sobbed harder, clutching onto Ash's white shirt, burying my face in the soft fabric and trying to find some comfort like I used to from the body I could no longer claim as mine, since the soul that possessed the body, no longer loved me as its own.

"Come on mate, I'll take you back..." Ashton trailed off his thoughts as he stood me up and led me towards the door, grabbing his keys and phone before locking the door and leading me back to Ruby's Place.

We finally arrived and there was a familiar car in the drive... Why is Michael here? I was about to knock on the door when I could see two figures through the window, they were hugging, they were really close... And through the dim light inside the house, I could see faint drips of liquid on my girlfriends wrists... Or should I say ex...

"Let's go..." I spoke quietly, dropping my confidence and slumping my shoulders and I turned around and let tears fall down my face as my heart plummeted to the darkest places.

"What... Why? Calum what happened?" Ashton questioned, placing a concerned hand to my shoulder as he had done earlier that day.

"How did I think I could compete with him..." I sniffed, trudging along, back down the drive way and pulling my beanie father down on my head, stuffing my hands in my pockets before walking down the street, leaving Ashton confused, still standing on the doorstep. I continued to walk alone until I reached the park, Ruby's favourite place... She loved taking pictures here... She loved everything about this place...

And that's when the voices started...