5SOS One Shots

Goodbye or Letting Go? - Calum Hood

"Bye." I choked out, giving Calum Hood, my bestest ever friend, one final hug. I stood in the airport, feeling completely lost, dreading the moment I would step on that plane and not see him for at least 8 months. My hand, that was clutching his, slowly dropped as I retreated, grabbing my backpack and throwing it over my shoulder.

"Final call for Flight 3902 to Los Angles, LA, I repeat, final boarding call, all passengers please make your way to gate 17." The announcement I've been dreading rang out around the airport and I blinked back tears. I turned away from Calum, not wanting to face him anymore. But he pulled me towards him, his gorgeous brown eyes gazing into mine.

"I guess this is it then." He said weakly, and I could see the pain in his eyes. God, I will miss those eyes so much. Before I could reply Calum tugged me towards him and pressed his lips to mine in a sweet, soft kiss. I wound my arms around his neck tightly, I never, ever wanted to let go. Reluctantly, I pulled away and stared at him, slightly confused.

"I never thought I would have feelings for you like that, you're my best friend." I admitted, and he gave a weak smile.

"I always knew." He replied simply, smiling sadly at me.

As I turned away, walking towards the departure gate, tears were already spilling down my cheeks, and I didn't bother hiding it this time. I glanced behind me as I was about to step onto the plane and spotted a single tear gliding down Calum's cheek.

I got on the plane and sat down in my seat, I was seated next to the window with an old woman next to me, she looked about 65, not that old, but not really young either.

As soon as I was seated, I put my earphones in and pressed play on shuffle mode. I was looking out the window as tears were filling my eyes, I honestly couldn't believe I had to leave everything I've ever known and move to L.A. I mean first were inky gonna be there a few months moving and stuff but then I come back and we move for real. All I could think was Fuck my life. Honestly I would rather not have a life than one without Calum in it.

As the song that was currently playing ended, it changed to the next song, which just so happened to be wherever you are. I sighed as the music flodded my ears and tears spilled down my cheeks.

'For a while we pretended,

That we never had to end it,

But we knew we'd have to say goodbye,

You were crying at the airport,

When they finally closed the plane doors,

I could barely hold it all inside.

Torn in two,

And I know I shouldn't tell you,

But I just cant stop thinking of you,

Wherever you are,

You,

Wherever you are,

Every night I almost call you,

Just to say it always will be you,

Wherever you are...'

"It's hard isn't it darling," the woman next to me said, handing me a tissue.

"Harder that it looks to be honest," I smiled as I took the tissue and wiped my eyes.

"What happened? Did you two break up or something?" she asked with a sympathtic smile.

"No... well I just... it's a long story, it's complicated..." I smiled sadly.

"Well we have a 14 hour flight ahead of us, so go ahead." She smiled softly at me again.

"Well basically, I just had to leave my bestfriend/crush because I have to move to stupid L.A, no offence, but then before I left he kissed me and told me he loves me and that he always has, but now I don't know what to do because I will be gone for 6 months, then when I go back he won't be there, he will be on tour with his band for another 2 and a half months and now I'm confused because I don't know if I should stick around and wait for him or just leave and let go." I said quickly though my tears and occasional sobs.

"Listen dearie, There's a difference between saying goodbye and letting go. Goodbye is 'I'll see you again when I'm ready to hold your hand and when you're ready to hold mine.' Letting go is 'I'll miss your hand, I realised it's not mine to hold and I'll never hold it again.'" She smiled at me as she finished and realisation hit me like a ton of brick to the face. I'm in love with my best friend Calum Thomas Hood. I smiled back at her before jumping out of my seat and scooting past her.

"It was nice to meet you ..." I said before running for the exit.

"Dorothy." She smiled.

"I'm Charlie, it was nice to meet you, but I've got my best friend waiting for me!" I exclaimed before running off the plane.

"Cal!" I screamed as I saw him sitting there crying and rubbing his eyes.

He stood up with a surprised look as I dropped my bags and began sprinting towards him. I was within arms length when I leaped up, and clung to him, my arms around his neck and my legs wrapped around his torso. I sobbed into his neck as he held me tightly.

"Charlie, Babe, you gonna miss your flight-" he choked out between his tears.

"I don't care Cal, I'm not leaving you, I love you!" I cried into his neck, nuzzling my head father into his neck as I cried.

"So you're staying?" He asked, his eyes lighting up. I pulled away and looked at him a real smile on my face for the first time today.

"Wild horses couldn't drag me away." I sniffled and kissed him.

We both pulled back and he placed his forehead against mine.

"Good because I don't want to have to go 8 and a half months without you." He smiled at me.

I leaned in connecting our lips again and smiled into the kiss. He let me down and we walked hand in hand to his car after telling the woman at the desk that I wasn't getting on the flight and collecting my bags.