Cheryl's POV
It was halfway through the week and I'm still alive. Air is traveling through my lungs, blood is pumping through my veins and my heart still aches for my TT.
"Cheryl?" Toni asked me as she waved a hand in front of my face. "Sorry, T. I got distracted." I smiled sadly. I had been getting distracted a lot recently. I think it's because of the cancer, but I'm not sure. It might just be the fact that there's a lot on my mind currently and I just want to think about everything. "Cher?" Toni whispered softly as she held my hand.
"Ya baby?" I asked as my eyes met her own.
"You did it again." Toni whispered. Toni knows about my "distractions". "Sorry Toni. I'm all ears." I told my wife as I sat up and smiled. "Are you ok, Cher? You seem like you've got a lot on your mind." Toni asked me as she scooted closer to me. "I'm scared, TT. I'm scared. I don't want to leave you. I want to be with you forever. I want to grow old with you! Not die young!" I blurted out, causing Toni to instinctively hold me. "I want to stay." I whispered against my wife's chest. "Baby girl, I promise you that I'll always be with you. You're my perfect angel and I'm gonna love you for eternity. Don't be scared, Cher. I'm always gonna be in your heart. You have made me who I am today, Cher. You got rid of my self-consciousness, you've given us children and you gave me a reason. I promise that I'll always be with you." Toni promised me as she stroked my hair.
"I don't wanna die." I cried against Toni's body.
Toni just cried back and held me tightly. I knew that she couldn't promise me anything, and that was reality.
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The next day, I was cooking breakfast with Toni. Well, Toni was cooking breakfast and I was playing with the twins. Harvey had ginger hair and light brown eyes. Holly had ginger hair and light brown eyes too, but she somehow managed to look like Toni. I admired the twins thoroughly before Toni called me for breakfast. I picked them up and carried them into the kitchen, where I put them in their high-chairs.
I wolfed down my breakfast before I lay with Toni and just simply enjoyed each others company. "How ya feeling, Princess?" Toni asked me after a while. "I'm ok." I half lied. You see, I was ok, but I was still scared. I just didn't want Toni to feel extra stressed. "Good, tell me if you need anything." Toni smiled at me warmly. "Of course." I smiled back at my wife.
After Toni, Harvey, Holly, Avery, Eli, Noah and I watched a film, ate dinner, brushed our teeth, washed our faces, got changed and went to bed, I lay in Toni's arms, thinking the same thoughts as the previous nights.
Is this the last night I'll ever have?
Was today the last day that I'll ever live?
Is this the last time that I'll ever feel Toni's arms around my body?
I had to push the thoughts down before I began to cry. I just turned around and buried my face into Toni's chest. Toni's cancer-free chest. I then wrapped my legs around her hips while Toni tightly wrapped her arms around my waist. We then fell asleep, nerves still bubbling in my head.
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It's now five days into the week. I felt ill. Really ill. But I decided to ignore it, because today the kids were at school, the twins were with Kevin and Fangs and the dogs were with Pea. I had Toni all to myself.
We were cuddled up on the sofa when I got really warm, so I took my top and my sweatpants off, leaving me in just my underwear. I then began to feel extremely dizzy and I gained a pounding headache. I then gripped onto Toni and began to breathe really heavy. My vision began to blur and I began to sweat. Toni sat me up on her lap and began to talk to me quickly, but her voice was all a long continuous beep. "Toni, I don't feel so good." I stuttered. "I don't know- I don't know what's happening." I stuttered out again. "I don't wanna go, I don't wanna go." I choked out as Toni places me into the car. "I don't wanna go, T, please I don't wanna go." I whimpered as I slumped into the car seat, the light from the windows blinding me. "I don't wanna go." I whimpered again as Toni started the car. The headache increased and it felt like my head was going to explode. "I love you." I whispered before everything went black and an ear-piercing noise was all that was left.
AN: ... Anyway... thanks for reading! See ya next chapter! BYEEE!!!
