The Tallest Tree

Sincerely, Me

Dear Connor Murphy,

School sucked today without you. Jared made some dumb comments about you, but I couldn't do anything about it. It's like all my confidence has gone away.

Anyways, tell me about life there. Any friends? Anything exciting?

Sincerely, me

Dear Evan Hansen,

We've been way too out of touch. Sorry it took me so long to answer. The doctors wanted to get me settled in. It's still kind of crazy here. It sucks that we don't talk that much. I gotta tell you though, I think of you each night. Life's pretty rough without you. They tell me I need to stop smoking pot. Like hell that's happening. But maybe they're right. Things could be better if I stopped doing drugs. But I'm turning around, wait and see. I just takes some reinvention. 

Sincerely, your favorite person, me

Dear Connor Murphy,

I also miss our talks. I know you'll get better. Maybe stop doing drugs and just... go on walks? I don't know. Here, I'll send pictures of the most amazing trees. You'll be obsessed with all my forest expertise. Probably not, I take that back. I know you're turning around. Dude, I'm proud of you just keep pushing through. I know that place is going to help you get better. All it takes is a little re-in-ven-tion. Give it your attention and you can do it. 

Sincerely, your bestest friend, me

Dear Evan Hansen,

Thanks for every note you send. It's really helping me get through being here. I've been here for two weeks and it's getting to be too much. I'm not allowed to have any visitors. I may have lost that privilege for going after a doctor. I miss hanging out with you. I'm surrounded by people but I'm so fucking lonely. I wish you were here.

Sincerely, your lonely ass friend, me

Dear Connor Murphy,

I'm just glad to be your friend. I wish I was there with you. I'm sorry it sucks in there. I understand why it's so awful. My mom put me in therapy years ago. It has helped me a little I guess. I know you can get through this. I mean, I guess our friendship goes beyond the average kind of bond. Not in a weird way obviously. 

Sincerely, your tree nerd, me

Dear Evan Hansen,

I agree our friendship goes beyond the average kind of bond. Not because we're gay. We're close but not that way. Anyways, I'm getting better everyday. I can tell. I should be back in no time. Or at least I'm hoping. Tell me about school. All we've done is talk about me and this stupid place. Has anything good been happening? Anything bad?

Sincerely, your emo druggie, me

Dear Connor Murphy,

School's been okay. I'm not failing any classes, so that's good. I've been bullied a little bit because I'm friends with you. But it doesn't bother me. People just don't understand all that you've been through. It's weird not having you here, even though we've only been friends for a short time. Jared keeps throwing digs at you, and I want to tell him to stop. But I can't. I want you to take as long as you need, but get better soon so you can come home. Or behave so I can visit you. Miss you dearly.

Sincerely, me

Dear Evan Hansen,

I'm working on good behavior so you can visit. Life without you has been hard. That sounds weird. It's been bad. Nope still not right. It's been rough? Yeah I guess, good enough. I'm sorry that people at school are being pricks. It will be over when I'm back. I'll be back soon. 

Sincerely, me

P.S. you're my only friend

Dear Connor Murphy,

I got an A on the history test! That was very surprising, I didn't think I did very well. I didn't even study. I probably should have though. Thinking of you!

Sincerely, your only friend, me

P.S. you said it not me

Dear Evan Hansen, 

I'm coming home. By the time you answer I should be home. I'm so excited. I feel better too. I'll see you!

SIncerely, your amazing friend, me

P.S. as long as you're okay with being my only friend