Forever and Ever // Lams

Revelations

ALEXANDER'S POV

I walked out of John's room as I answered the phone. "Hello?" I said nervously.

"Hamilton! Are you kidding me? We were together for nearly 3 months, and then you just broke up with me for no reason? Over text? I can't believe you!"

"Jefferson, I thought we were just together for... you know... I don't know... I didn't think our relationship meant much to you..." I stuttered

"Why would you think that?! Yeah, maybe it started off that way, but Hamilton... I... honestly, I began to like you. And I thought you liked me back. But I should've known you were going to break up with me the second you ran out of that classroom." He spit out in anger.

"Wait-- what? You liked me? I thought the only reason we were together is to make our exes jealous and to... have fun... together" I kept stuttering, I couldn't believe he liked me. He had always seemed so distant when we tried to have conversations.

But I had noticed he had begun to kiss me differently recently. Instead of a short kiss, quickly breaking apart he held my face, and kissed me like it would be the last time we ever touched. I noticed that because it was more like... John.

I cringed. "Thomas, I'm really sorry, but you've known from the beginning that this wouldn't last forever. My heart belongs to someone else, I know this will sound rude, but it seemed like you already knew this! You weren't really my boyfriend. I mean, you were!" I added the last part quickly before Jefferson could interrupt. "But, my feelings were different about you than they were with John. Than they are with John. I think John and I are getting back together, Thomas, and I know you won't, but at least try to feel happy for me? These aren't normal circumstances. You and I both knew that from the beginning."

"I can't believe you! You've been playing around with my heart for 2 1/2 months? I guess there was a mix-up, because as far I was concerned, we were dating because we had a real connection! I led you to your room that night because I was so thankful that you were finally available, and at the same time as me! I--"

"Wait, did you somehow know that I was going to break up with John? You didn't have anything to do with King George's texts, did you?" My voice was filled with suspicion.

"I-- I-- No! I never w-would share people's secrets with that t-traitor! And also, he included a secret about me! If I was included in his plan, why would he have a secret about me?" He demanded.

"Because that secret wasn't even bad! You literally OUTED people, Jefferson! YOU OUTED YOUR OWN FRIENDS, JEFFERSON! FOR WHAT, ME? WELL SCREW YOU, JEFFERSON!"

He tried to reply, but I hung up on him.

I walked back into the room, shaking with anger.

"So how did it go?" Asked John, half joking.

I glared at him but chuckled at the same time.

"I suspect you heard me screaming at him?" I raised my eyebrows.

"Whattt? Noooo!" He dragged out his words sarcastically and then laughed cutely.

I rushed forward and kissed him right on the lips. He seemed surprised and then returned it.

We broke apart after a moment and I smiled at him, our eyes locking. It reminded me of the first day of school, our first kiss, my first kiss, actually.

"So... not to break up this magical moment, but Jefferson?" John raised his eyebrows at me questioningly.

"He told everyone's secrets to George!" I spat out angrily, raising my voice.

"You need to tell everyone, Alex!" Exclaimed John.

I nodded and was about to send it to the group chat of only friends, when I realized I was still part of the group chat with the whole school.

My text:

Hi everyone! This is Alexander Hamilton. Just letting you know, if you were wondering how King George knew so many of your secrets it's because he teamed up with Thomas Jefferson to dig up secrets about everyone in the entire school.

I put my phone back in my pocket.

"So now that's out of the way, let's talk about why you're in the hospital, John. You were self harming?" I sat down next to his bed again and he closed his eyes and sighed.

"Alex, you wouldn't understand-" He began, but I cut him off by lifting up the sleeve of my hoodie.

"Y-You do too?" He looked shocked.

"Did. I used to, John. But then I met you." I smiled and took his hand, pulling my sleeve back down.

"Wait, you had told me those were scars from a dog attacking you as a kid!" He exclaimed. "You lied to me?"

"Of course I did, John." I paused for a moment, an awkward moment that I hated. I thought we had put awkward moments behind us. "Jacky? I have a kinda personal question, you don't have to answer, but... did you self harm while we were together?"

John looked down in shame. "No..." I could tell he was lying and raised my eyebrows at him. "Fine, yes, I did. Not because of you though, because I hated myself. If I'm being honest, I still do. That's why I was picking at my cuts from last night, because I couldn't take out a blade in class and cut myself could I? I was doing it because I hated myself for letting you get away. So I guess it was about you in a way, but mostly it was because I hate myself. Sorry, I sound insane... I love you Alex, you know that?" He looked up at me with big, puppy dog eyes. "I really love you, and I promise I'll try not to cut myself anymore. As much, at least."

I gazed at my beautiful boyfriend, tears filling my eyes. This is never a conversation I never could've had with Jefferson. The more I thought about it, the more I was astonished Jefferson and I's relationship lasted so long.

"John, if you aren't going to take care of yourself, I will because I love you too. The doctors said you had fainted from a mix of blood loss and sleep deprivation. You can't cut yourself anymore, it's bad for you! You need to sleep normally t--"

"Look who's telling me to sleep normally!" He laughed. "Also, you need to start eating again. When was the last time you ate?"

Oh my God, he noticed.

"I--a week or two ago?"

John took a deep breath. I braced myself for him to scream at me, but instead he let it out in a sigh. "Drive to 7-11 right now, get as many snacks as you can hold, and come back. We'll eat together, I'm not going to eat hospital food!"

I laughed, and although I really didn't want to, I drove to 7-11 and got every flavor of chip they had and tons of candy. I came back and we ate together, and for once, I was stuffed.