A Heart with Empty Pages

051

I want to be thin so badly

and I'm pretty sure it'll make me happy

I'd like to lose another pound--or twenty

but people tell me I've lost plenty

doctors tell me all the dangers

but I refuse to make any changes

I'm passing out and feeling dizzy

but I can't eat, I'm just "too busy"

I'll starve myself a little longer

push back

push against the hunger

I check my body in the mirror

but I don't see things any clearer

I just see what I wish could be better

so I hide myself under a sweater

if I eat I have to vomit

for me, purging is pretty common

I lie to everyone though

I can't let anybody know

that I've been reckless--

and I'm anorexic.