When Will it End? (Discontinued)

Chapter 4

Hi again, I know that I must be annoying with all the complaining I do, but here I am again. Today the Alpha announced that another pack will be coming over in a few weeks! How cool is that! I will final meet someone who might like me or at least I can put on my mask and make some friends! Not that I don't like being your friend, it's just I want more friends then just one, you know? I was shoved into the lockers again and I have a bruise on my chest, but what can be done? Nothing is the answer. I already cooked for the night so I can talk with you. I have been letting my guard down around you a lot more than I want, but that's good I guess. I like feeling safe and wanted when I am talking with you. Plus in like 3 or 4 weeks I'll get to make new friends! I guess that's what will keep me going for now. A week or two ago I felt like there was nothing left to live for, but you came and changed everything, thank you for that. I really hope my luck changes for the better, I'm tried of being afraid of being hurt or made fun of. I just want to be expected for myself not for the mask I carry. Oh, I haven't told you why I have so many problems. Well, you know I'm a werewolf, this means I have a mate. Most werewolves are bisexual or pansexual, because you never know who your mate is going to be. Now, I'm pan/ace, meaning that I don't mind dating any gender, but I don't want to have sex. Ace stands for asexual, no I don't reproduce by myself, I just don't feel sexual attraction. After I said that I felt this way to one of my friends they left me and told all of the pack. Now everyone thinks that there is something wrong with me, but there isn't this is just who I am. I know that everyone struggling with coming out in one way or another. I just wish that I was accepted by one person at least. Well I mean I know you accept me, but no one in my pack does and it hurts a lot. A pack is supposed to be one big family, when they turn their back to you it hurts on a spiritual level. Good gosh I am exhausted, I am going to go hit the hay as they say. I will talk to you as soon as I am well rested. Good night enjoy your sleep, because I know I will enjoy mine.