Honestly, I think my mind has officially broken. Same with my body. Just everything feels broken. I feel like I'm definitely not the same person and everything feels wrong. The only emotion I have left is confusion. That's all I ever am anymore, confused.
I've started to notice that I don't feel like I used to. I only show one emotion and that would be sadness, all I do is cry and half the time I don't even know why I'm crying. Other than that I don't really have emotions or feelings.
I mainly started feeling this way after my week long anxiety attack. After my second panic attack last week, it feels like all my feelings and emotions disappeared after that. It's like I broke. Nothing works anymore.
On top of that, I've lost 8 pounds. I was 98 pounds a few months ago and now I only weigh 90. Apparently anxiety and depression can cause you to lose weight even if you don't have it to lose. You don't have to change your eating habits to lose weight, you just lose it. I could lose up to 10-15% of my body weigh because anxiety and depression causes you to use up too much energy, so you burn more energy than you consume.
So, I'm slowly withering away, along with my sanity. Everything is broken. I need help as soon as possible, honestly. I attempted to get it for myself the other day by going to my school counselor. My mom is supposed to be getting a referral to get me help, but still hasn't received it. If she never gets it, I doubt I'll be getting any help.
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Şiir"She is so fragile. Everything breaks her heart, But nothing can mend it." - Peyton (me) This is a book filled with my poetry and it may contain some trying times in my life I've decided to share. You can interpret my poems the way you'd like. You c...
