Come On, Make Me (COMPLETED)

Chapter 38

#COMM

Chapter 38

"Siobhan."

My eyes darted to my grandfather who was looking at me like I was the biggest disappointment in the family. I knew that if he had his way, puro lalaki ang gusto niyang maging apo. What's the use of having a girl, anyway? We're just good when we're married off to some powerful family. Iyon lang naman ang tingin niya sa amin.

I could feel my entire body shaking in anger as I welcomed his stare. Justin stood beside me, amused with the situation he created. Why wouldn't he just disappear from my life?! Why did he enjoy making me suffer so much? May nagawa ba ako sa kanya?!

Hindi ako makapagsalita. I knew that the moment I let myself talk, I'd quickly regret every word that would come out of my mouth. I fisted my hands, and looked at him... I wanted to beg... If he's still family... If he still sees me as family...

"Abuelo..." I begged, my voice laced with cry for help.

"Beg harder," Justin whispered in my ear.

I closed my eyes, and breathed deeper. I needed to calm down. I needed to find a way to turn this situation around. I couldn't let those guys go to war! Not at my expense! I wouldn't know how I'd be able to live with myself if something happens to them! Dahil sa akin! Dahil kay Justin!

"Abuelo..." I repeated. I looked at him. Kung apo ba talaga niya ako... he wouldn't put me in this situation. He wouldn't let my conscience kill me because if something happens to any of them... I'd die. I'd seriously die. "Por favor no."

His forehead creased. "Por qué? Eres amigo de esos soldados?" he asked. I looked at him. Was it important if I were friends with those soldiers? Hindi ba sila tao? Bakit ba ang dali lang para sa iba na itapon ang buhay ng ibang tao?

What's human without humanity?

"Sí. No quiero que mueran."

I could see the disapproval in his eyes. "Por qué debería estar de acuerdo con esto?"

Huminga muli ako nang malalim. I knew this would happen... Hindi siya papayag na wala siyang makuha sa paghiling ko na 'wag dalhin sina Evan sa kung saan man sila balak dalhin. Was this Justin's plan all along? To fucking scare me into giving in? Because it's working! I'd rather be scared to death than to send them to a war!

"Cualquier cosa," I replied. I'd do anything... Just to stop this madness. I wouldn't be able to live with the guilt. May pamilya sila. May mga nagmamahal sa kanila. I wouldn't be able to carry the guilt if ever something happens to them.

Abuelo nodded. "All right," he said, then looked at Justin who seemed lost. Abuelo didn't say a thing, but he just tapped Justin's shoulder... as if this was the plan all along. Na iparinig sa akin iyong mga mangyayari. To torture me into giving in.

Halos mapa-hawak ako sa railings nang magsimulang maglakad paalis si Abuelo. Napa-hawak ako sa dibdib ko. I couldn't breathe. I could feel my body shaking with fear. Shit.

"So disrespectful," Justin said. "You know I can't understand Spanish."

I looked at him. I could feel tears welling in my eyes. I hated him so much! Bakit ba siya nabuhay?! Bakit ba siya napunta sa buhay ko?! Why did he enjoy torturing me so much?! Bakit ba dinadamay niya sila Evan na wala namang kasalanan sa kanya?!

"What do you want?" I asked him. Mabilis kong pinunasan ang luha ko. I didn't want to cry in front of him. I didn't want him to see me breaking. But I was so angry that I couldn't control myself anymore!

"Hmm..." He looked at me. He held my chin, and looked at my face. "First, I want you to dump that boyfriend of yours."

"No."