| 28 days before |
Dear Calum,
These past few weeks...ive felt like a ninja. ive been dodging you left and right. i stopped taking the bus cause i felt v uncomfortable. youre so confusing and duck. d u c k. wow im writing this and autocorrect still follows me around rude.
but foreal. what the hell calum. really? making out in the back of the hallway really idk! it makes me so angry, like holy. you wouldnt understand tho.
you still text me. a lot actually. i mean i love reading your messages. its like your basically having a conversation to yourself cause i never reply. maybe i should. do you miss me?
im currently writing this during lunch and i told my friends this was for my spanish proj. haha.
anywhore, ya calum. gosh im so confused. like are we even friends? youre so random, i hate it.
you just dont understand calum. you dont. you dont know how it feels to like somebody...like you. like youre like my grandpas age, i cant date you. you cant even look at me like that. ill always be a kid to you, or some frikin idk. something not like your girlfriend.
i know with makenna its different. shes suppose to be in junior year, might i add, and the way she dresses has boys from college run after her. kinda disgusting, but i guess shes all yours.
hey calum, i think ill move on. your friend michael transfered to my pre-cal class, so i mean...what am i even saying. fuck this jealousy thing.
creds to him for being the nicest person in the class tho.
give me his number calum.
i wonder how youre feeling rn.
i just wish youd feel the hatred i have towards you for being with makenna.
this is so unfair.
i guess thats life for ya.
fujKCsoif
i feel you staring at me. jk maybe youre staring a julianna, my best friend. i mean a lot of guys like her, so. okay your getting up. omg my face is heating, somebody turn off the heater please.
youre getting up. no omg okay omg no im so mad rn. none of my friends are doing anything.
what the h éll . please somebody help.
im scared i shouldnt be writing rn, i should be putting this away but i want to keep doing this. oh well yolo
you just asked me what im doing. calum what are you even doing here. somebody help, somebody, anybody.
im ignoring you and you ke
okay im back. srry you were being very intruding and tried to look at this. like no sweety not today. anyways, you kept asking me what was wrong yadayadayada like you would care.
im actually thanking makenna for dragging you away from me. gosh was that anxiety or wHAT. haha
gosh calum, you clingy bastard. just couldnt resist me...im jking.
okay well im in my last period with michael. and hes talking to me. hes hélla cool and funny wow calum. i know for sure he wouldnt like me. what the héll is up with me and seniors help me. im so glad nobody knows about this, hopefully.
well i hope you have a great life with makenna.
im jealous and im not afraid to say it, cause idek if these letters will ever get to you.
okay im going to go now.
bye.
-nia x
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i love michael. hehe
so ya its like ll;50 and i feel like passing out but i have to write my other fanfics so alrighty.
see you like in a yeAR JKJK
-alyssa
