| 17 Days Before |
Dear Calum,
Im currently sick and tired and full and poo. i have the cold which is why i haven't been at school for the past couple of days. this is the part where i would have said "wow i wonder if he (as in you) noticed".
but the day i was absent you spammed me with text messages, took a picture of the empty window seat on the bus, took pictures of sharpies, sent me a picture of a puppy, sent me a picture of a llama and spammed with more messages to me again.
so it's necessary to say that you did, in fact, notice my absence.
that meant a lot to me.
it brought a warm fuzzy feeling in my stomach like 'wow he actually did notice and maybe actually cares'.
not even my friends spammed me.
okay maybe they sent me a 'u ok?'
but what meaning does that have. jk
anywho, youre really cute and funny. opening my messages that morning made me want to go to school ((which is never)) even if i did look like a hobo. you made me want to run to the bus stop and talk to you. but being the lazy person i am, i stayed home, made myself a cup-of-noodle, had a box of tissues next to me at all time and watched on-demand. ((i suck, i don't have a netflix account oPPS))
ya. throughout the day you texted me asking if i was doing good. and we got into a silly argument because i told you 'why would i be good, im sick'
haha you probably know that already.
but throughout the whole time i was all like 'i wonder of he was here next to me...like taking care of me and making my soup and laying kind-of next to me. ((i was logically thinking okAy, like if we cuddled I would get you sick and we wouldn't even be cuddling cause im trAsh))
but ya i missed you.
i think you like me.
but i don't know. you're not an easy person to read. i mean...why would you like a sophomore? you're a senior. you'll be graduating and you'll forget my existence.
l ike just like that, you'll be in and out of my life.
plus i can't read minds. maybe im just a little sister to you or something.
i'll ask you one day. jk i doubt it, i wouldn't have balls to ask you. but literally i don't have balls i swear.
...so ya.
im in the middle of watching 'Brave' for the 5th time in a row and i cried for the first two times..but now im bored so why not write you another letter.
i must have like definitely five or more letters to you.
WeLp
fuakaAowldnAiOAKWEPFM
CALU
ALC
CALDM
SKSO
CALIS
CALHM
ICAR
ICANT EVEN WRITE PROPERLY RIGHT NOW
okay im breathing properly again anyways, you've been texting me this whole time while i was writing this but ya. anyways you just texted me:
you: 'you coming to school on friday?'
((it's wed-nes-day))
me: 'idk maybe if i feel better'
((im looking at my phone and just writing it on paper, don't judge me))
you: 'oh okay, hoping you might want to hangout after school ;)'
((you put the fücking winking face. wheres my engagement ring))
me: 'doubt you'd want to do thAt'
((im annotating our whole convo sorry. currently debating if i should SS and frame this))
you: 'oh you watch and see. I'll personally go to your hosue and kidnap you.'
me: house*
you: 'now isn't the time to be correcting. you think im joking, haaha. dont worrrrryyyy. hope you feel better beautiful, see you friday ;)'
***
i need a second.
im currently coughing my guts out.
50% is flem stuck in my throat / 50% is what i just read
okay im going to sleep calum, you probably need some too.
thanks for the texts...that really made my...uh night.
okay my hand is tired and i just re-typed our texts onto paper so give me some slack.
okay wow this is like hecka pages alright bye calum...see you on...friday?
-nia x
p.s still waiting for your nudes oh
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wow this is so long
told you you had to wait a week.
okay so im so mad and OMG I WROTE THIS HUGE AUTHORS NOTE ON MU PHONE AND I GO ON MY COMPUTER TO EDIT AND NOW IT DELETED IM CRYing
okay basically in the authors note i previously wrote,, i was complaning to @asdfghjessica on how i was pissed about this chapter/letter being deleted after i already wrote it and omg.
((okay but you should read her (asdfghjessica) stories, they give me life, anxiety and second thoughths about harry styles.))
but im currently blind cause i wrote this on my phone and it was too close to my face so im not fully 100% that im typing everything correctly
okay but ya nia is like 16 and calum is like 18 and its weird but yolo swag yAga
love you
thanks for 120+ reads also ;)
-alyssa
