| 4 days before |
Dear Calum,
you don't take the bus anymore.
you probably know that, because i mean...you are you.
nobody sits next to me anymore. my backpack lays there now, as i plug out the world and watch the rain fall outside. the weather has gotten worst since you've stopped taking the bus. in my prespective atleast.
i thought you were sick at first, when you didn't show up at the bus stop.
then i thought you were angry at me, because you stopped texting me.
but that's when i saw you with Luke and Michael sitting next to that senior girl.
she's pretty.
winter ball is coming up.
im not going.
i still have a pile of letters laying inside a box under my bed, all directed to you.
nobody knows about it.
i think i might stop writing letters to you calum.
although i believe that this was a good stress reliever and helped me agonize and vent out my feelings, but in the end it seems as if there is no point anymore.
it's okay, im okay.
in the beginning, i felt betrayed, used even.
but now i see what happiness looks like.
i can't be mad at you, i honestly can't.
i think the thing i miss the most is the sharpies.
it's getting cold and the warmth isn't near me anymore.
it's okay calum, everything is okay.
hey, i'll always be here though.
-nia x
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everything is escalating so quickly whAt
sorry i think it'll make sense later not really sure
but okay so there are ONLY 15 letters and after something will happen and after that something than this will be over
i actually really liked writing this, it's so much fun tbh
okay love you bubs
-alyssa
