| 25 days before |
Dear Calum,
I sorta kinda confronted you. i was talking to michael, and sleekly slid you into our conversation. im so embarrassed.
"how is calum and makenna?" is what i asked him. i was kinda doing my assignment, so when it got silent i looked up at him. he was laughing.
"they broke up like idk a week ago? why" is what he said. i started sweating because i was thinking about that time i saw you ((atleast i thought it was you)) making out with makenna in the back of the hallway. maybe you didn't want your friends to know?
"oh i thought i saw him in the end of the hallway with her or something" i was scared out of my life, but i kept calm pretending i didn't care.
"nah, probably wasn't him. he's been with us like 24/7, trust me." he said.
god damnit calum, im literally embarrassing myself.
"ya, haha there was this one time when idk he was talking to me during lunch-"
"-oh ya i remember that" i kinda freaked out a little when michael said that.
"well makenna kinda idk-"
"oh ya she dragged him out, ya ya she's a bîtch. calum got hëlla mad that day."
idk why im putting this in actual quotations dnt ask me.
but after that, our convo stopped and i ended up talking about piercings with him.
for some reason it led him asking for my number.
this is the most boy action ((excluding you)) that's ever happened in my life. haaha.
michael seems like a good friend.
he's cool.
"i'll text you tonight, cause i don't get any of this shît we're doing." he smiled at me.
that moment, i was so glad that michael was in this class.
"i won't be any help, since i don't get any of it either"
we parted ways after that.
now im in my bed room, writing this to you like all my letters.
im sorry for going off on you about makenna. it's just, she did some really bad things to me in the past and im kinda damaged.
i really wish i had the guts to text you first.
ive never texted a guy first.
oh, im also very sorry on what i said to you in my previous letter. ((for accusing you for making out with makenna, when it wasn't you))
im embarrassed rn.
ive probably used that word like 100 times already, ohwell.
this is horrible.
you literally haven't intentionally hurt me. im just assuming things and making everything seem bad. i hate myself. i literally have like 8 letters to you or something.
idek if i'll be giving it to you.
maybe one day.
gosh, ive got it bad.
i want to cry because of how ugly i sound rn.
im a sophomore and you're a senior.
you know what calum, fûck it.
i'll send you a message to you right now, because you're worth it.
-nia x
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okay so i understand calum like dropped out of school ((either his sophomore year going into junior, or his junior year going into senior))
but let's all jus pretend he's a senior and 5sos is making its way down town to becoming famous okay? yes.
but ya, calum's feelings towards nia is so mysterious i love it.
bruh if i was talking to 2/4 id probably die, come back to life, text them and then die again.
okay i hope your fave fücks you one day love you all! ;)
-alyssa
