Past Honeymoon: BTOB IHS

Chapter 9

P A S T  H O N E Y M O O N
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"If I'm gonna lose someone,
don't let it be you."
- Love Die Young, Eric Nam

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Chapter 9 | HYUNSIK

I'm freezing.

Sera and I walk through the hallways dripping cold water. We enter the hotel room and turn up the heater.

She takes my hand and dances. "Sing." She says.

"I'm trembling!"

"That's why you should sing."

I shake my head, unable to suppress a grin. "You're crazy."

She takes off her drenched coat and dances again, holding my hand. Only Sera can dance so cheerfully without music. So, I sing despite my trembling voice. She can't stop laughing. "You sound like you're singing in front of an electric fan." She says.

I watch her as she dances. How did I almost forget how bright she is? I haven't seen her like this in such a long time. Did I take that brightness away during all those times?

My smile slowly fades.

I hate when she cries. Because I don't know what to do, if she's crying about me. I hate that I make her cry at all.

God. What have I been doing to her?

She takes off her sweater and leaves her tank top on. Her body trembles a little. Her lips are pale too, but she still smiles. Is that even a real smile? Could she really be genuinely happy here with me? Or do I still make her sad?

"Hey," I call softly. I tug her hand in mine, pulling her close.

"Yes?" She asks, blinking.

"I think you need body heat." I say, smiling.

"What-"

I kiss her cold lips softly, apologizing over and over in my head, trying to transit the message through the kiss.

She pulls away. "I think you need to take off your clothes."

My heart drums and my eyes widen. "What?"

Sera laughs. "You're freezing, Hyunsik. Take off the drenched clothes."

I shrug and as I take off my clothes, there's a tug on the corner of my lips as I feel her watching.

"You were passing cold to me, not heat." She says, sitting on the edge of the bed.

I look at her and take off my shirt. "Well, then. Let me pass the body heat now." I scoop her in my arms and kiss her again. Her back falls on the mattress.

"Hyunsik," she murmurs through the kisses.

"Hm?"

"I think we're gonna die."

I laugh and I can't even kiss anymore. "Why?"

"I am literally freezing. What have we done?" She says.

I pull myself away from her and go to the bathroom. I turn on the jaccuzzi. "Sera, come over." I call. I take off my belt and my pants and then I soak in the warm water with a sigh.

Sera comes and she's nonchalant even when I'm only in boxers. I guess I'm always wearing boxers at home.

She reluctantly pulls down her jeans and sits on the opposite side, knees folded. "Yeah, this is better."

"My body heat has just been rejected."

She laughs. "No."

I raise an eyebrow. "No?"

She glides forward and wraps her legs around me, so that she's sitting close. My breath hitches. Gently, she hugs me and lays her head on my shoulder.

I kiss her bare shoulder. She looks up at me and then down my lips. I kiss her there too. Slowly. As if we have all the time in the world.

But we don't, do we? I don't even know if this trip will continue to work out the way it is now.

I run my hands on her back and feel the softness of her lips, and I wish time would stop. I want to stay here like this forever.

I kiss down her neck, earning a soft sigh from her. And her collarbone. And I kiss every inch of her.

I pull her out of the hot water and bring her to bed where we once again make love.

We bury ourselves under the sheets and watch as the sun meets the sea through the window.

"You know, I keep thinking about the times when we were just dating. And even way before that." She says. Her voice comes soft and sleepy.

"Me, too." I admit.

"Really?"

I nod and tuck strands of hair behind her ear. "Yeah."

"I realize we're still pretty much the same as we are now. I keep trying to figure out what changed us. I can't even remember when it happened."

"Like a nightmare."

"Yeah."

I run my finger down her shoulder. "But I think you know." She says. I stop.

"What do you mean?"

"I don't know. I just have a feeling that if you stop and think about it, you might come up with a reason."

I look at her in disbelief. I rub my face and pull away just a little. "Sera, it's not one big thing that's easy to remember. It's a million little things that happened everyday." I sigh and look into her eyes. "Can we talk about this tomorrow, please?"

She nods, but there's something in her eyes. The sadness is back again.

Jeez. I don't know what to do anymore.

I sigh and kiss her forehead, and then I pull her close. I pull her close everytime she's sad and I don't know what to do.

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Thankfully, we fall asleep. When I wake up, I take my notebook and a pen, and I write a new song. I look at Sera who's peacefully sleeping and then at the stars in the nightsky to inspire me.

I haven't written a song in a while. Rather than speaking, I express my feelings better with writing. That's why I try to avoid the 'talk' that I know Sera is waiting for. The 'talk' about how we became the way we were before this trip. I'm afraid I'll say the wrong thing and she'll slip away from my hands forever.

Once she wakes up, we call room service and order food. We eat and talk about the old times. And everyday that I spend more time with her lately, I am reminded of why I decided to marry this woman in the first place.

After dinner, Sera sidles up beside me and we gaze at the stars of Jeju, like a million shining glitters splattered in the dark. I kiss the top of her head and smell the familiar shampoo she uses. She wraps her arms around my waist and her embrace is so warm, and it just feels so good that she's around. My heart drums steadily in my chest. And I'm happy to be with her.

I quietly wish to the stars that we'll make it through, even though we're past honeymoon.

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A/N:
*rolls credits*
hahaha guys! thank u for reading!
i hope you are liking it even though i was really anxious about this story and the writing is also in present tense, which i'm not used to 👀

anyway, i might not update for 2-3 days because i'll be on vacay! but i also might if i get bored there. 😂 sooo until then, hyunsik and sera will enjoy their honeymoon 2.0 in your heads! lol