𝐝𝐢𝐟𝐟𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐧𝐭 ✾ (𝐣𝐞𝐧𝐳𝐢𝐞)

TEN !

DIFFERENT !

one month later !!

I WAS HANGING OUT AT NOAH'S HOUSE
at nine in the morning, scrolling through my instagram feed (that mainly consisted of celebrities, i didn't have many friends if you couldn't tell). he was in the shower, because i told him he stunk from his baseball practice last night.

it became a daily routine, besides the 'you stink' part. that was probably every other day.

anyway, i would tell my 'mother' i was going over early in the morning. she never liked it, but she knew what i would do if i stayed home. so, i just came over and just chilled on the couch. every day.

i haven't talked to johnny since the day i came to the turners. in all honesty, it was a good thing because for the first time; i actually embarrassed myself. he probably thinks i'm a fool now. and he's cute. however, natalie signed me up for the high school him and nadia attend. in a week, i'll have to face him every day.

apparently i 'threw a fit' when natalie told me i'd be starting public school. i heard her talking on the phone about be like i was some sort of toddler. actually, it feels like i'm a toddler all over again. getting used to my surroundings and not knowing who anyone is.

nadia; i still wouldn't consider her my sister. we're polar opposites. she goes out to the mall every single saturday with her friends, she eats sushi for fun. she puts on a full face of makeup every morning and does her hair. lately, she's trying to get closer to me. i can tell, but i think it's because her mom is working on changing my last name to 'turner' so i'm officially apart of their family.

doesn't sound exciting to me.

as for ruby, we get along great. sometimes i'll drop her off at her dance practice and she'll beg me to walk her in, then brag to all of her friends about her 'older sister kenzie'. it's really sweet. on friday nights, we take natalie's car to wendy's and get chicken nuggets and frosties.

the first time i knew we'd get along, is when her friend was trying so hard to teach her how to skateboard. it looked so sad, she was so desperate. eventually, she scraped her knee, gave up, and pouted after her friend left.

i didn't want to, but i walked out to the porch and asked her if i could help. she looked incredibly annoyed, which made me mad, but i still took turns with her trying to skate up and down the driveway until she got it down.

i remember hearing her talk to herself, or maybe her imaginary friend, or a ghost. i don't know who. but, she said, "wait... she's kinda cool." after that, i smiled, gave her a fist bump, a wet willy, and went back inside.

still, the point is, she's the better sister.

although, a part of me wishes i could say the same about nadia. half of me wants a girl my age to do girl stuff with. get my nails done, drive around town, go to parties, get food. another half of me wants to stick with who i am.

bad-mannered, cigarette-smoking, alcohol-drinking, black-clothed; mackenzie ziegler.

i know there's always only two halves, but if there were a third half of my brain,

i think it would want the first choice too.

KARLEIGH SPEAKS !
wait i'm kinda proud of the ending bc it's deep

also sorry for not updating in forever!! i haven't had school all week because of the weather hehe so i've been busy while i have some free time