I always care too much.
Always.
For my family.
Friends.
Classmates.
Coworkers.
Fucking strangers.
It's so annoying.
I always put them first and I'm so done with this shit, done trying to talk to my bestfriend, done being nice to everyone, I'm so done.
See I have this bad habit of feeling like everyone needs my protection, and always stepping up when I feel like they're threatened.
My sister is 6 years older than me, when I feel like someone's taking advantage of her, or being too mean or creepy, I fucking put them in their place.
When we go to a store or a restaurant and I feel like the guy at our table or behind the bar is being too creepy, I step in front of my friends, as if my 167 and 53 kg body would do anything.
The thought that someone may be annoying them in anyway angers me and an overprotective me comes out.
I don't know how to stop it.
I don't trust anyone my friends introduce me to, I'm always very suspicious, and I'm mostly right.
I usually cut the people who annoy me out, so when my friend comes over to complain how her FRIEND has been treating her like shit and saying things like,
"I can legit do anything to Liz and she'll never mind it."
How the fuck are you friends with this type of people ? Why are you ?
And she goes on to explain how she can't just cut her out or some shit.
Mark kept complaining about our friend taking him for granted and it always angered me. Dude just cut him out.
Another example, Mark again, told me he had a crush on some girl that we know, and I told him for weeks not to ask her out because I know she is no good. When one of my friends does something stupid I tell them, I'm not their friend to be nice to them, I'm here to be here for them but also prevent heartbreaks from happening. Anyway Mark did ask her out but didn't dare to tell me till last week, they've been seeing each other since April, but I already knew of course.
When my friend got into a relationship I kept telling her to slow down, things shouldn't happen too quickly I don't give a fuck if it feels right, you don't make this so serious so fast.
But she did and now he's bad influence on her, they never listen.
When someone is hinting or trying to make fun of one of my friends, I'm always there to fucking stop them, always.
I'm the kid who takes the punch for the team, or whatever that corny ass shit is, in school I had a fight with the principal, with the 2 counsellors and most teachers, because I don't take shit from nobody mate.
I quit my job because I couldn't see my manager use me and my coworkers so she could look good, I would always put her in her place, would always call her out on shit, till she pissed me off so much I told I'm done.
Me doing that helped my coworkers see how much of a bitch she was, they're trying to kick her out now.
See I'm always there for people, but literally no one is here when I need someone, not even me.
