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10 anonymous messages

I woke up Saturday to my phone ringing and a pounding in my head. I looked up and was blinded by the light, I picked up my phone and answered it quickly.

"Ayda! Why haven't you been answering?" Andrew's voice came over the phone, slightly echoing.

"I was asleep, what's going on?" I rubbed my eyes.

"School started 20 minutes ago, I'm in the school bathroom." He said and I heard the bathroom door open.

"Okay I'll be there soon." I got out of bed and heard a voice on the other end.

"Who are you talking to?" It was Alex, I still hadn't spoken to him.

"Nobody, I'll be in class in a minute." I heard the door open and close. "Remember that note that you got for week one?"

"Yeah why?" I set my phone onto speaker and started changing.

"There was three more, I grabbed them before Lexie or Alex could." He told me.

"Thank you, I'll get them when I get there." I hung up and rushed to get ready. I threw on my backpack and headed out the door.

20 minutes later I walked into the class and handed the teacher my excuse from the front desk. "Have a seat Ayda." Mr. Weston said and I nodded.

I sat in my usual seat with the other A's, that's what we called each other and I realized I had forgot my headphones, I've spent enough time hiding from them anyways.

"Hey guys." I said nervously and looked up slowly.

"So you're talking today?" Alex said with a hint of rudeness in his voice.

"I'm sorry I-" I began but Andrew cut me off.

"Have you ever thought that maybe, something personal was going on?" He sent Alex a glare and Alex backed off.

"I'm sorry, I just wish you would've called or something." He apologized and I felt Andrew slip the notes onto my lap.

"I wish I could've, but I couldn't, I'm sorry. I'll let you know what happened when I can. I promise. How have you guys been?" I looked at the three of them.

"Worried." Lexie said. "About you."

"I'm fine, I promise." I gave my best smile, though I still felt weak.

"What happened with Clarke yesterday? I heard you actually made him feel bad." Lexie asked and I shrugged.

"I bumped into him, dropped my phone, he took my phone, and I got a little frustrated and he felt bad and gave it back." I said.

"Is that why he asked for your number?" Alex asked and raised an eyebrow.

"He wanted to apologize, apparently he's not an ass all the time, who knew?" I said sarcastically, trying to ignore the pounding in my head.

We caught up for the last few minutes of class before the bell. When the bell rang I went into the bathroom and looked at the notes.

"Week #2
I'm sorry these are all on the same week, I've been busy thinking about you."

"Week #3
Something is off about you, that face isn't the same without the beautiful smile."

"Week #4
He's in love with you, you hurt him."

My chest was pounding as I shoved the notes in my bag and walked to class quickly. I pulled out my phone and texted he anonymous number again.

"Who did I hurt? They don't love me, none of them do!"

"Can't you tell? He's so in love with you."

"Who? Who is in love with me?!"

"The one you hurt is one of the A's"

"You're a coward."

"Excuse me? I'm the coward? I'm not the one who's hid from my feelings and my friends because I'm going through a rough spot."

That was it. I lost my temper on someone I don't even know.

"Yeah, I hid my feelings. I had no choice. It is a legal issue and I'm not allowed to talk about it, so what else was I supposed to do?! At least if I knew who you were I'd have the courage to talk to your face and not through text message, through voicemail, and secret notes."

"So many feelings coming from a girl who thought she didn't matter, you matter. To him, the one you hurt."

"You don't know me."

"Yes I do, Ayda."

I turned off my phone and felt arms wrap around my shoulders, and realized tears were streaming down my face. It was Alex. I hugged him back and as much as I wanted to talk about it, I couldn't.