Rules // Bang Chan x Reader ♡

IV.

y/n's pov

I haven't seen him for three whole days. Sian and I haven't talked that much either. We exchanged a few words like "I'm going out" or "I'm hungry, do you want some ramen?".

Most importantly, we haven't talked about him. I don't need to hear those words again, because I don't feel like I'm ready for it. 

  After Sian told me that a few days ago in the practice room, I couldn't help but think about Chris even more. Did he think about me too? Did he realise I didn't go visit my friend anymore? Clearly not. He was too busy to think about some random girl he met. Sian tried her best to keep me far from him.  She even came home whenever she forgot something, because she didn't want me to get close to him or even the building. It made me sad, I must admit it. I then realised she was trying to protect me. But somehow I felt like my childhood years were back, like everyone could tell me what to do and I should obey them no matter what. My father used to act like that not even a month ago. 

I couldn't stop thinking about him these past days. He obviously found out I was gone. I should be happy about it, just like I was when I first came. But I don't feel like that. He's my dad in the end, and he doesn't deserve being lonely. 

I look at myself in the mirror just like I did on the elevator, when I was with him. My smile doesn't feel real. I learnt how to fake a smile long ago and I truly thought I wouldn't have to use it anymore. But I was wrong. It's insane how a single boy can make me feel this way. Well, I don't blame myself though. I never felt love, not even attraction. My dad would always prohibit me having fun. That included parties, dinner with friends and of course boys. So it's understandable how a boy paying attention to me made me go crazy.

I do my make up and decide to go around the city. Sian is at the building so I have time to myself to discover the whole town. I leave my house and start walking down the big avenue. Sian lives in the biggest avenue in Seoul, that's why I find her to be very lucky. For my surprise though, is absolutely silent. No loud noises like in my city, where the bus driver would honk at least ten times until the old woman crossing the street would yell at him. My mum always said I was born to live in a big city yet I don't really believe that myself. Seoul makes me feel small and irrelevant. Its tall buildings and people make me feel like I'm not enough.

I enter a café near the building, I need to apologise to Sian. I miss talking to her every night about anything, laughing and watching movies with her, staying up all night ranting about deep thoughts we had. I decide to wait for her here, I can't afford seeing him again. Once I see her, I will tell her how sorry I am. I just didn't know. And it wasn't my intention to shut her off. She was just trying to protect me and I now understand it. 

I sit alone with my chocolate frapuccino,looking outside. I love this. I love how I can see everyone walking around but they can't see me. I can spy every little movement people make but they can't see what I'm doing. A masculine voice interrupts my thoughts and I jump.

-"I'm sorry, miss. I didn't mean to scare you." - He said, lightly bowing. 

I shake my head, letting him know it's okay. I look at him. He has dark hair and brown eyes. His earrings make his jaw look strong, and his height surpises me. 

-"May I..."- He points at the chair and I nod. I usually wouldn't let any random boy sit with me, but I feel like he is nice and shy. I saw him staring at me before, and I find it very cute he finally talked to me. 

-"My name is Haruto. I'm sorry this is a little random. I saw you before, and I've been wanting to talk to you."- As soon as the words leave his mouth, he starts to blush. 

-"It's fine, Haruto. Now can you-" I stop there.

What are you doing?

Y/n, this is your new life, flirt with him. You won't get this opportunity twice. He is cute and you're not being controled by anyone, you can now freely ask him for his number, hang out with him and whatever couples do. Do it.

-"Actually, I've been waiting for you to talk to me, too. I'm y/n"- I give him a small smile and he chuckles. 

-"So y/n. What brings you here?" -He asks, raising his eyebrows.

I tell him everything, skipping my dad's part and of course everything that happened a few days ago. He nods with almost everything I say, and I'm glad someone is actually listening to me for the last days.  

He starts talking about himself and I listen carefully. He tells me he was actually born in Japan, but because of his father's job, he had to move a few months ago. He is still trying to learn korean so that's why he thought he could communicate with me in english. He also tells me he is studying at the School Of Performing Acts in Seoul, and that he loves it. I find everything he is telling me interesting so I smile and nod just like he did when it was my turn. He finishes talking and asks for my number, which I of course give him with a big smile on my face. I somehow feel like I am using him, but I try to not think about that and be kind to him, just like he is being kind to me.

The sound of the door interrupts him, and I don't turn my back to see who came. He told me he is alone and so  am I so none of us are waiting for someone. Suddenly Sian's voice interfers my conversation with Haruto.

-"y/n? What are you doing here?"- She doesn't sound calmed at all and when I turn to look at her I know why.

She came with Chris.

hey!

well, this chapter is actually trash but some interesting scenes are coming, i promise! i am also sorry this is a little shorter than usual, but i'll try my best to make the next chapters longer so you can enjoy it more! i hope you still like it, as always, thank u for reading it, it means the world to me!

until next time,

marina xx