Rules // Bang Chan x Reader ♡

XXI.

-"What?"- His dark eyes are fixed on mine. I stop walking.

-"You heard me."- I am not strong enough to repeat the question so I keep quiet.

-"Y/n. You can trust me, okay? You really can." -He takes my hand and I instantly feel safe.

Before I got here, I used to picture my life as a movie. Everything would be perfect and I would finally get to feel genuine happiness. I would work as a cashier to make some money just to escape with Sian during the weekends. I would wake up everyday with a freshly made breakfast made by the cutest and most handsome boy ever. I pictured my life as a romantic movie and now it's the completely opposite thing. Mafias, lies, cheaters, toxic relationships and rules have completely taken over me. But there's something about my life now that makes me feel happy. I've spent all my life thinking I wasn't strong enough to do things on my own. Now I've been able to go through the weirdest shit. Yes, maybe I got a little help but the point is that I'm evolving. I'm becoming the best version of myself.
It's late and yet Seoul is still alive. The streetlights light our way as we walk down the big avenue.
-"You know what was my first thought when I saw you?"- His voice breaks the silence and I look at him. His eyes are still focused on my face and I shake my head. "I saw myself in you. I saw myself in your eyes. You were lost, so was I. And the fact that I got to help you made me feel complete. I finally felt complete. And I know you don't like clichés but that's what I feel everytime I see you."

I don't know what to say. I love how random he is. I love how he shares his thoughts in a way nobody else does. That's his thing. Making my heart flutter is his thing.

-"Chris I-" - My mind is trying to process his confession. I mean, yes, I knew he loved me but I would've never imagined he would feel such strong feelings for me. I never thought someone like him would love someone like me.

-"Can I take you somewhere?" - He raises and eyebrow and I frown.

-"I-I mean... yeah, I guess. I am free this friday if you want to we can have a walk or maybe go to the cinem-"

-"Now." - He doesn't wait for me to answer and he takes me by the hand instead. We're walking up the avenue again.  We walk in front of my house.
Sian isn't outside. It seems like she didn't care about what I said. I wanted her to realise how dangerous our situation was but she just kept on partying like nothing happened. That's very Sian. Ignoring my feelings is very Sian. But then again, asking for forgiveness and making me feel loved is also Sian's personality trait. Now that life joined us again, we won't be able to break apart. We are each other's definition of friendship.
My house is now far. He stops walking.

-"Close your eyes." - His voice is almost a whisper. I do as he says and I cover my eyes.

-"Oh, no. Please don't tell me this is a romantic movie thingy and now you're gonna ki-" - He wraps his arms around my waist.
I feel his breath on my neck and my heart races.

-"Open." - His voice makes me jump and I can feel him giggle from behind.
I open my eyes and I gasp. We're on a rooftop.

-"No you didn't." - I turn around and look at him. His arms are crossed on his chest and the air is moving his hair, making him look effortlessly beautiful.

-"I think I did."- He shrugs and I shake my head.

The place is beautiful. Seoul can be seen from here and all the lights and buildings make me feel insignificant. 

-"I know how much you hate clichés but I gotta be honest here."- He lays down on the floor and I follow. His arms are above his head and he is looking up, observing the firmament. "I don't know what the fuck is happening. I don't know what is going on. Ever since you came into my life, you've turned it upside down. I used to remind myself how important it is to focus on the things you love. But who says you can only love one thing?" - He speaks fast and soft and it's getting harder for me to hear his words. He doesn't look at me, though. It seems like he is speaking to himself, he is convincing himself of his own words.

-"I don't think I follow..."- My voice doesn't surprise him and he doesn't even look at me.

-"I like you, a lot. And I know you already know but I wanted to let you know so I prepared this for you." - His eyes are now looking at me but he isn't expecting an answer. He is just staring at me. "And I don't know how but we'll both get through this." - He stands up, now looking at the buildings in front of us. "I brought you here because I wanted to fully express how I'm feeling. And now I know that it doesn't matter how many mafias, problems and difficulties we have to go through. I will be here for you and you will be there for me. That's the only thing I know for certain." - His voice is soft and his words touch the deepest part of me. I feel my eyes getting watery.
It's insane. I don't know how but he is able to calm the strongest storm inside me.
-"Are you saying that you want to be.... together? Like you and me?" - My voice shakes and I look up, avoiding his eyes. I see him nod and I panick.
After months filled with problems and tears, he has finally made the decision I was waiting for.
-"What about the company, though? Your job, your CEO. The rules." - I look at him and he smiles.
"Rules? Fuck them. I am the CEO of my own life and I make the rules now." - He seems mad but his tone is soft. Before I get to answer he adds:

"You are my number one rule."

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hi hi! well... idk how to feel
about this chapter but there you go!! i hope you liked it.
also, i'm sorry about the grammar mistakes it's nearly 1 am and i am sleepy but my exam week is coming so i really felt the need to update.
please know that i'll be ia for a few weeks due to exams so i hope you understand.
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marina xx