My Older Alpha Mate

chapter five

I couldn't get the image of the Alpha out of my head. He really did look like a god. His eyes were sharp and precise, his stomach was toned and his arms carried muscle. Every time I looked at him, I felt a slight tingle down my spine. Must be a baby crush. I decided today that I wanted to do something big.

My seventeenth birthday would be an amazing time to have my first sexual experience. It would be best if it was a fling, I think. Something with no strings attached. I scratched off another day on my calendar. 2 more days. I bit down on my lip as I considered my mate, the factor I forgot about.

I wanted to tell my brother because he's my best friend but there's no way he would understand. I want to be experienced for my mate, this is assuming that he's not dead. I wanted to feel something, mate or not. Jon gave me plenty of reasons to not believe in mates. More than I could imagine.

I overheard Jon talking about my birthday party at the packhouse and I know I'll find someone there who will be down. Once I'm seventeen, I'll radiate the sweet smell of a young, unmarked mate. I'll choose one and who knows, I may even kick off a relationship!

I grinned at the thought of it all. Jon knocked on my door and I spun around to look at him, my cheeks reddening as if he could read my dirty thoughts. "Hey Rory, I'm going to go out of town with some other warriors to restore border control. There have been reports of rogue sightings and I think it may be dangerous... I just wanted to let you know just in case something happens and I don't come back. I love you, okay?"

My eyes immediately began to water profusely as the thought of losing my brother, my last love, was too much. I don't even know if I believe in love anymore. The world has some sick way of depriving me of any love I could require. He pulled me into his arms tightly and I let the tears fall. "Please be safe Jon. I can't lose you too." He nodded somberly and kissed my forehead. "I'll be okay. I just like to make sure I keep you in the loop." I nodded this time, thankful for such an amazing brother.

He kisses my forehead once more before leaving my room. I glanced at the calendar once more, biting my lip. I climbed up on my bed and thought about the alpha once more. The power he radiated, his glowing tan skin, his gorgeous curls, his deep voice... I tossed my head back gently as I rubbed my thighs together, trying to cure the burning that had settled in my core. I shook my head and rubbed my eyes as I realized what I was doing.

Suddenly, my phone vibrated as Beta Jake's name illuminated my screen, I giggled like a schoolgirl as the thought infested in my head. I think I know who I want to hook up with.

I read the text as it glowed on my screen, "Meet me in the field in fifteen."