Only Average (EDITING)

Chapter eight

Author's note: Hey guys, sorry I didn't post anything last night. I had major writer's block and I'm getting ready to move in September. But here ya go. Hope you enjoy it:)

Marie's P.O.V

Sarah and I just got back from McDonald's with Ryan and Luke. I still can't believe that Sarah and Ryan are dating and Luke seems just as surprised as I do, so I guess I'm not the only one that feels like this weird. I head over to my Ipod dock and put on Erase me By: Kid Cudi. This is a really good song to chill out to and smoke a bowl. Sarah and I only smoke when we have to clear our heads and tell each other really big things that is hard to explain.

"Wow, we haven't had to bring out the weed since David broke up with you six months ago and you had to explain to me that he left you for you're dad. That was some crazy shit. But I don't think this is on the same level of trying to explain things clearly." She said with a smirk. But took the bowl anyway. "Yeah, well I think it is. Epically since you have never found a guy good enough to call your'e boyfriend." I said and she starts to choke on the strong smoke as it leaves her lungs and exists through her mouth. I can tell the exact moment that she starts to relax because she closes her eyes and leans back. "Whoa. It's been a while." She says with a grin. She passes it over to me and I take it greedily.

I used to smoke everyday five times a day and then I started to forget anything any one told me. Then the only time I would eat is if I was high, and then it got worse and I had to smoke to sleep. I soon realized that I was only doing it because I was depressed and I started going to therapy. But then it got worse and I started getting addicted to pills. Xanax and Ambien. That was a lot worse then weed. At one party my friend Dakota, well ex friend, introduced me to speed. And that's when everything went down hill. I started mixing alcohol, Xanax, Ambien, Speed and weed in one take. One night Sarah found me in my dad's basement and everything changed my life completely.

She was looking for me to tell me that my mom had been in a terrible accident. She broke the news to me and that was the last day that I ever did pills. I drink occasionally and smoke weed when Sarah and I have something important to explain, but other then that I have been clean ever since then. I was the reason my mother died. She was rushing to my dad's house to see me because she knew everything. Sarah had told her because she was worried about me. But by the time I found out she was in the hospital on life support and they were about to pull the plug, I was too fucked up to go to the hospital to say goodbye.I was a senior in highschool when this happend. I pulled my grades up quickly and graduated with a lot of help from tutors and my dad's money.

"So about Ryan.." Sarah starts off. I take another hit remembering the past always sucks. It haunts you like nothing else ever can. "Okay I'm listening." I say through cotton mouth. "I really like him, we stayed up all night last night talking. I have never done that before. We talked about everything, from our past to our future. It was so amazing. I have never been with a guy that would open up to me instead of try to open up my legs. Ya know?" She looks up at me looking for my approval. "Yeah, I mean that is really cool that you found someone like that. You need someone like that in your life and I'm really happy for you." I say while I pull her into me and give her a big hug.

"Okay enough with the sappy shit. Let's get high and drink some of this sweet tea vodka that I bought a few days ago." She says as she heads to the fridge. "Sounds good to me." a say with a smile. I love nights like this. Just hanging out with my best friend, doing our thing and not regretting anything. But that just might be the weed talking. I shrug to myself and take another hit. I might as well take advantage of this.

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Short I know, but I'm just so busy. I'm moving in a few weeks and I have to make sure everything is clean and set up. Love you guys. I hope you like Maire's past. I didn't have trouble writing that part because it's sorta my past, with a few changes.

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