Only Average (EDITING)

Chapter twenty five

Luke’s P.O.V

“Can I please talk to you for a minute? I promise it won’t talk too long.” I whispered into Marie’s ear. I took a step back to look back into her eyes to see nervousness in them. But she nodded anyway and followed me into the bathroom to our right. Right before I closed the door I saw Ryan and Sarah looking at me with a ‘what the hell’ look. I gave them a reassuring smile and a nod and then closed and locked the door so we won’t get interrupted. I turned around to see Marie sitting on the counter by the sink looking down at the ground with an intense gaze. I held up my hands in surrender and started with the speech that I have been practicing all night “so I know that I don’t deserve your time. Especially how I treated you in Ireland and on the plane home. I was just in a bad place, and needed help I guess.” At that last part she finally looked up at me with sadness in her eyes and I realized that I have moved closer to her without even realizing it.

 I finish with “I know that’s not a good excuse. And it’s not really an excuse, it’s the truth. I was so caught up in my own shit to realize my feeling for you. It took me losing you to realize that I am so in love with you that it hurts me to see you with that doctor guy. I know I don’t deserve you, and he does, I know I have probably ruined any chance that I have ever had with you. But I just couldn’t let you go without letting you know exactly how I felt about you.”

When I finished what I was saying I was breathing heavy. Marie looked into my eyes no doubt seeing if I was telling the truth. My eyes read only the truth. She took a deep breath and then leaned in grabbing my forearms to pull me in closer to her. Her breathing was just as heavy as mine when our lips touched. I pulled her impossibly closer to me and wrapped one arm around her waist and putting the other on her cheek. I felt her arm go around my neck and her legs wrap around me. We melted into each other and kissed passionately. I have only had one kiss before this one that made me feel this way and it was in the hot tub with Marie. Our tongues danced together in each other’s mouths falling in sync. Our hearts beating impossibly fast. When I started to get light headed I pulled away and kissed her tenderly down her neck. When I got down to her chest I stopped and went to put a light kiss on her lips. I smiled the biggest smile that I have in a long time and put my forehead against hers.

“Wow.” Was all that Marie said, and that’s all she needed to say. I let out a light chuckle and said “yeah, wow.” She laughed and then kissed me lightly on my cheek. That’s when we heard a light knock on the door and heard “Hey babe? They are serving the food.” My face went red with rage. I forgot about him. Marie jerked away quickly and said “okay honey, I’ll be out in a minute.” Her voice strained. We heard him walk away and Marie ran her fingers through her hair. I rubbed her cheek soothingly and then she looked into my eyes with guilt and sadness. Well that’s not what I expected to see after what we just shared together. She took in a deep breath and hopped off the counter to check her hair and makeup in the mirror. I start to get butterflies in my stomach quickly realizing what she was going to say. Her mouth opened and then closed at least four times before she said “I can’t believe I just did that. I’m with Bryan now. I gave you a chance to be with me. I can’t do this now. I can’t just fall back into your arms again and get hurt. You’re a player and I don’t play that game. I just… I just can’t” And with one single tear escaping her eyes she unlocks the door and walks out.

I turn to the mirror and grip my chest, right over my heart. So this is what it feels like to get your heart broken. I crumble to the floor and cry softly. I never knew this pain before; I just hope she’s happy with him, something that I can never do for her. At least I won’t ever have regrets, I told her how I felt and this is what I was telling myself would happen anyway. I prepared myself for this; I pick myself up off the floor and wash my face. I need to put on a good face for Ryan and Sarah. I walk out of the bathroom and into the dinner area. I took a seat next to Ryan and Mike and right across from Marie. She and Bryan were talking about the food; I looked at her and then turned to my food trying to keep the smile on my face. Ryan leaned over to me and whispered “You okay bro?” I nodded and he let it go thankfully.