Torn

Chapter 37- A Long Goodbye

Isabelle's POV-

I woke up this morning to the sound of Nash beating on my door. It's 7:00am and it's time to go home. Finally.

I open the door to let Nash know that I am up. He looks sad. This is the last day I'll see him for a while, while hayes, chad, nila, and I are flying back to North Carolina, Cameron, matt, and him are flying back to California. Nash doesn't know when he will be home next, and now that we are back together again, both him and j are feeling the toll. I hope we an keep it all normal while keeping it quiet. As of now nobody knows but us, and that's how it needs to stay.

But yet I still feel so guilty about all of the lies.

This is why having to choose is not a strong point. I don't know who. Both make me happy in some type of way. I just am not sure. I think of all these things as I get ready to leave New York... and Nash.

I put on a pair of lilly Pulitzer shorts and a monogrammed tshirt with the matching pattern. I bring my bags out into the hallway where everyone is quiet and seems sad. None of us want to leave each other. We go down to the car that is waiting for us and get inside. I'm squished in between Nash and hayes. The rain that came out of no where pours on the cab as we drive to the airport. When we get out of the car and gather onto the sidewalk, it's time to say goodbye. Matt, Cameron, and Nash would be heading the opposite way of the rest of us. I hug Cameron and Matt and say goodbye. Then it's time for me to say goodbye to nash. It's hard. That's what's he grabs my hand and takes me inside.

"Isabelle I don't want to do this. But I have to. Being with you has reminded me of how we cannot be together. You belong with hayes. He loves you. He can be there for you more than I. He will be there for you. If we continue dating, you will lose him. And I won't let that happen. I want to be more than your friend. So I am going to be your best friend. If hayes or anyone doesn't treat you right call me and I'll handle it. You deserve the world Izzy Belle, and I'm going to try to help you as much as possible." he says. I hug him tight and we go inside.

"I needed to throw something away." I say. Nash nods. We hug again and we take off for our gates. We wave goodbye and I wave goodbye to all of my feelings to nash. He was more of a best friend than a boyfriend. Hayes is my boyfriend. And nash was right, he will be there for me more than he could. I'm glad nash could see it.

We board the plane and I look over at hayes. He smiles at me. He was the person I loved, and he loved me. I smile back at him and he grabs my hand as the plane takes off.

I am no longer Torn.