Stray Kids BxB OneShots

I Need You

Ship|Hyunsung
Genre|Angst, Self-harm
Groups|N/A
this oneshot contains self-harm and self degradation please DO NOT read if you get easily triggered

Jisung's POV:

Come on Jisung think. You've written lyrics before it's not that hard. At this rate you're just gonna fall behind and hold back the group. Everyone is working their butts off and you're here sulking get your shit together.

"Jisung did you finish the lyrics for Mixtape 4 yet?" Chan asked me turning around in his chair.

"No, I can't think of anything." I muttered looking at the ground.

"Seriously Jisung? This has to be done by tonight. You've made the lyrics before I don't understand why this is so difficult for you. You're not even writing all of it you're just tweaking them so it sounds better when sung." Changbin ranted also becoming stressed.

"Calm down Changbin. Jisung just stay back for today. Changbin is right it is due by tonight so just go back to the dorm. We'll be back with the others soon, okay?" Chan said trying not to stress out.

"Ya I'll stay back. it has to get done. I'll go now have fun with the others." I said as I got up and left.

Seriously Jisung? You're such a mess. You can't even finish one song and you're only tweaking the lyrics not even writing all of it. How did you even debut?

It's okay. It's fine there's no problem here. I just need to finish the song. that's simple just some simple tweaking and I'll be done. Chan won't be mad, Changbin won't be stressed- everything will be fine.

*** 1 hour later ***

SERIOUSLY?!?? IT'S BEEN AN HOUR AND I HAVE NOTHING. Chan's gonna kill me like come on Jisung you've writing full out songs but this? This you can't do? You're such a failure.

'Jisung you're such a disappointment'

'Hyunjin would be so embarrassed'

'You can't even do a simple task, who will ever want you'

'How'd you even debut? JYP should've eliminated you permanently'

'Since you can't do anything with your life, you should just give up'

'You'll never be good enough for yourself, Hyunjin or Stray Kids'

"SHUT UP"

I can't do this. They've come back. They're right though, I'm nothing. No one needs me. I should've gone back to Malaysia.

'Jisung do it'

'You'll feel nothing. It'll be painless'

'There's no point in staying here, no one will care if you're gone'

'Your members won't care, JYP won't care and Hyunjin 100% wouldn't care'

"Hyunjin cares. He'll care of I'm gone, he always does. He cares about when I used to do it, when I'm sick, when I'm stressed, whe-"

'HE DOESN'T CARE. IF HE CARED HE'D BE HERE RIGHT NOW. HE'S OUT WITH THE OTHERS AND HE KNOWS YOU'RE NOT THERE YET HE'S NOT WITH YOU RIGHT NOW IS HE? HE DOESN'T CARE. YOU'RE HIS LITTLE TOY'

"You're right. If he cared he would be here with me right now."

'That's right he doesn't care. The love of your life doesn't care about you. What're you gonna do about it?'

"I-I don't know."

'Listen to me Jisung. I know best for you. It'll help. You won't feel this pain anymore. It'll be all gone.'

"You're right"

Hyunjin's POV:

Minho hyung, Felix and I just finished practicing the dance for Mixtape 4. Lately Jisung has been super stressed about writing the lyrics for Mixtape 4, so hopefully the outing we're having will help him relax.

*** at the restaurant ***

"Hey hyungs, did you guys order yet?" I asked as we sat down with the rest of them.

"Ya we ordered some fried chicken, 2 pizzas and a choco cake for Jisung, since he's at the dorm right now." Woojin said getting excited for the chicken.

"Wait why isn't hyung here?" Jeongin asked confused about why one of his members didn't join them for their outing.

"He had to finish the lyrics for Mixtape, so we told him to stay home."Changbin said not taking any hint to what may happen at the dorm.

"Wait he's at home? Alone?" I asked becoming slightly concerned.

"Obviously he's alone if we're all here. Why are you so concerned for?" Seungmin sassed.

"I think I'm just gonna bring Jisung some food and eat with him at home. He's probably hungry and you know he can't cook." I said packing up a few pieces of chicken, pizza and the choco cake.

"Do whatever you want. Just make sure he finishes the lyrics." Changbin said before stuffing a slice of pizza in his mouth.

*** Time Skip to Dorms***

I hope Jisung's okay. He normally doesn't stay home alone anymore. I was really looking forward to having that dinner with all of them, stress free. It's fine though. Jisung's more important, I hope he didn't do anything.

"Jisungie~ I'm home. I have food and your favorite, choco cake." I shouted walking into the kitchen.

Nothing. There was nothing. Where is he? Normally when he hears about cake he's the first in the kitchen. Please God, don't let anything happen to him.

"Jisung? There's food in- JISUNG WHERE ARE YOU?" I frantically yelled throughout the dorm. Jisung wasn't in his room and there's no noise within the dorm.

"JISUNG PLEASE WHERE ARE YOU?"

"J-Jinnie?" I heard a small groan from the bathroom. No please don't be what I think it is.

"Jisung? Can you open the door?"

...

"JISUNG OPEN THE DOOR PLEASE BABY." I yelled slamming against the door trying to open it.

After a couple of kicks, the door opened and inside was my baby. Unconscious and bloody.

"Jisung? Sungie? Baby please. P-please wake up. For me baby. I promise I'll be better. Just p-please wake up." I sobbed holding Jisung's head to my chest.

"J-Jinnie? I-I'm s-sorry. I love you." Jisung muttered before falling unconscious again.

"No baby please. Wake up again, please I love you" I cried trying to wake him up again.

"Please I need you."

I'm sorry it took me so long to put this out. It's not very good but i hoped you liked it. also I'm sorry for any grammar mistakes.

anyways thanks for reading💘