When My Heart Is In Vain

BEST FRIENDS TO LOVERS

"BEST FRIENDS TO LOVERS"

|PLAGIARISM is a crime|

I was scrolling down my phone, looking at those selfies you took the last time you stole my phone from me to make fun of it and took 143 goddamn pictures. I can't help but smile at how crazy you could be at some times. Jolly. And was just more of yourself when you are just with me.

"Siiiin!" I turned off my phone when I heard that loud and chinky voice of yours and your not so loud knocks at the door (note the sarcasm d-_-b)

I immediately headed to open the door seeing you and Chester, my boy Bestfriend.

"What's this?! Sabi nya Bestfriend mo daw sya kaya sya nandito! Is that true?! Ha?!" I chuckled. You looked so cute turning red and was tough frustrated, impatiently waiting for my answer.

"Ah, yeah, he's also my bestfriend, Jash" i saw how your cute, chinky eyes turned wide.

"AKALA KO BA AKO LANG BESPREN MO?!" And you started hitting me with the red umbrella you are holding till you turned your back at us leaving me and Chester laughing our asses out.

"Ayokong nakikita yang pagmumukha mo! You dumb ass! Akin lang si Sin! Ako lang ang bestfriend nya!" I smiled at how possessive you were of me. You'd always end up having wars with Chester every time you saw us together. There was once...

"Huy! Chester! Haliparot ka! Bakla ka noh! Dikit ka ng dikit sa bestfrined ko! BAKLA!"

But Chester will always end up laughing at your naughtiness.
Bubbliness. Loudness.

"Huy! Wag mo hawakan si Sin! Kingina kang BAKLA ka! Mapagsamantala!"

"Akala mo di ko alam sekreto mo noh?! Bakla ka kaya kinaibigan mo si Sin kasi crush mo sya!"

And you bubble out any things when you are in front of each other.

"You're bestfriend sounds stupid at times but I find it so cute" Chester said, smiling with glimmering eyes who's emotion can't be named.

"You can't like her" I coldly said before I looked away at him.

"Because you love her? Yeah right" I looked at you, shocked plastered on my face.

"Ho--"

"Com'on man! Man up haha! I'm your Bestfriend haha" I looked at the other direction as I heard you say those words.

"I don't like her. She looks cute but she's not my type. She bubbles too much like a parrot" as you said those, i was relieved and we end up laughing that day.

The next days, I wasn't able to see you two. I got sick for weeks. I haven't heard from you two after you both visited me. I thought of you gettin' busy at some stuffs, but a day came a saw you two laughing at a joke one of you must've told. It pained me. I trembled a bit. I can't help myself seeing her laughing at 'someone' else's joke, especially when it came from Chester. My best friend.

"Sin!" you called me with glee in your voice.

"Look! Believe me not! Haha bespren ko na din ang loko na si Chesches! And guess! Nakakuha kami ng isda dun sa batis malapi--" I cutted you off

"Ah yeah that's cool. Enjoy your day ahead. You both" I, myself, could also feel the coldness of my voice and treatment towards you. My heart's damn aching, seeing you smile... Not because of me, but because of Chester. The smile I used to brew out from you whenever you are sad. The smile I used to see because I made you happy.

"Are you avoiding us?" You asked one day. I stared at you both blankly.

"I'm just busy" and turned my back at you guys.

Yes, Jash. I am 'avoiding' you both. I can't help seeing you two happy when you two used to be enemies because of me and now 'bestfriends' because of me?

Days, weeks and months passed by, I still avoided you. I can't help getting jealous every time you'll told me about your happy moments together. Without me. You were happy without me.

But I was eaten by my own, when I can't stop my self no more. I wanted to talk to you and get back to what we were used to be before.

"I'll apologizedl this time, and... Tell her how I felt towards her" I motivated myself as I practiced my lines. Confess. That's my plan. I'm tired of hiding what I am truly feeling towards you. I was a coward but I've got enough.

"J-jash" I called you out. You were shock seeing me holdingba bouquet of your favorite flowers with a blue teddy bear on my left hand. Chester looked at me with a questioning look too. But I just smiled at the both of you.

"A-ano toh, S-sin" you asked. Confused of my act.

"Jash. I am so sorry I have been a coward. I have been so selfish. Immature or whatever you may call me for getting away from you. For avoiding you. S-sorry. Please forgive me. I will not waste things now, Jash. Here me o---"

"Get direct to the point, Sin" in a flash of second, you sounded serious.

"A-ahm... J-jash... I wanna say..."

"Bro" Chester called out. I looked at him and smile and at you then smiled wider.

"I realized I love you so much, Jash. So damn mu---"

"Bro"

"What, Chester?"

"Bro--"

"You can't love me, Sin" you said, coldly. I turned to face you adain, slowly.

"W-why?"

"K-kami na ni Chester"

My knees wobbled. My eyes starting to brow tears. My heart starting to ache and ache as the time tick tacks.

"W-what? C-come again?"

"Bro... S-sorry" I looked at Chester.

"I once loved you Sin. But I've never seen even a lil chance for you to like me back" my tears rolled down. So gay fuck. "I hoped. So. Damn. Much. But the time you started avoiding us. Me. I lose hope. Nasaktan ako nun kasi di ko alam saan ako nagkamali. I was so down the time you left. Leaving me with no words. But" you looked at Chester with a smile on your face. "I've got Chester with me"

"B-babe" that pained me more. Killing me. Pinning some knife deeply down to the bottom pit of my heart.

"He was there when you were no where to be reached to. And I fell for him" I dropped the flowers and teddy bear. I'm too weak at the moment. I laughed bitterly.

"C-congrats then! I am so happy for you, my bestfriends" I said and turn my back. None of you stopped me from doing so. None of my bestfriends.

I gotta be happy right? I may not be the reason of her happiness now but at least I was one of the reason to find her new love. I gotta be happy because I made two people happy. I gotta be happy with my stupidity.

I gotta be happy that I made my best friends turn into lovers.

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