When My Heart Is In Vain

YOU NEVER REALLY SAVE ME

YOU NEVER REALLY SAVED ME

You have seen me so happy. You have seen me at my most gracious while. You have seen me flash some laughs and smile. You have seen me enjoy a certain moment. You have seen me enjoying life. You have seen me loving, caring, and all...

But...

You haven't seen me crying. You haven't seen me scrutinizing from pain. You haven't seen me falling. You haven't seen me mourning from my greatest downfall. You... You haven't seen me hurting.

You haven't, because you have always seen the scenery where I was so good at pretending I was okay. Hnding all the pain y'all have caused me.

And guess what? I am now in a great great misery. Misery where everybody won't even think I am in. Who thinks i was not eaten. Who thinks I am still living but deep inside was merely dying.

Have you ever remembered the time you asked me if I were really okay? Haha! I definitely saith, YES.

But damn you for not looking into my eyes. Eyes, where a pitiful soul was slowly drowning. Drowning from fears and tears, sadness and depression, anxiety and pitiful mind.

You always ask what was that thing on my wrist, wrist so full of cuts. You asked me what was with my posts, posts of suicidal. You asked me if there was any problem, but... That was all you ever did. ASK. Ask the same thing over and over again, like you have seen me ones with that problem, but you were never helping.

I got a thick rope with me now. Feeling tired, can't fake enough in front of the crowd.

What will you do? Plead? Plead to not kill myself? Or ASK if what you've done wasn't enough to make my life end.

Sorry, but you never really saved me.