The Pain I'm In || Peter parker || [Completed]✔

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MY BONES RATTLED; FEAR
Courses through my veins at high speed. I had just managed to make it out of stark tower, and into an alley way to change.

It was 4:47 pm when I Finished suiting up, and repeatedly shot webbing at building after building as fast as I could possible Go.

"Peter?" A concerned robotic voice asks. "H-Hey Karen I'm kind of in the middle of something-"

"You have an incoming call from
Tony Stark", she cuts me off as I swing through town. "-Aw C'mon Karen don't!!-"

I tried to tell her not to answer but, I was startled by Tony's nervous voice "Hey pete- Why'd you run off so quick?? You know happy could've given you a ride."

Pete. He only calls me that when he's worried about something. But what could a billionair with a fancy company and a heroic title really worry about? His world was perfect. The only darkness Mr. Stark ever seems to face seems to revolve more around villains, than anything else.

in the end, he's always the hero. That's something I could never be, Despite this mask I wear, and the people I've gone out of my way to save. I'm so weak, I'm sure there's alot of people in queens that have died at my hand, because I was weak. I shake my head, anxiously before mustering up some kind of courage to respond.

"U-Uhh S-Sorry about that- I-I guess I was in a bit of a hurry."

"It's Fine kid. Really. What's with you lately?? Is everything at home alright??"

"O-Oh!! Uhh..yeah!! O-Of course!! W-Why wouldn't they- U-Us- M-Me???-
I-I MEAN, W-Why would I not be..okay..??"

"Well for one, you're stuttering like you're going through some kind of withdrawal. I can hear your teeth chattering through the suit you know."

I anxiously Clentched my jaws together, at his statement. "So....are you gonna spill it?"

I purse my lips, hesitating my response. I gulp back the lump in my throat. I couldn't keep this conversation going any longer, or I swore I'd lose it.

"Y-Yeah-sorry-thanks
gotta-go-love-you-bye" the words poured through my mouth so fast they were almost difficult to understand. And slammed the button on my wrist to hang up before I could swing again. Then something dawned on me, and i felt my cheeks burn.

"Did I seriously just say love you to Mr Stark ?" I asked allowed, in annoyance.

"Yes" Karen replies rather bluntly.

~ Time skip ~

I eventually made it back to the apartment. My body Felt so weak, as I climbed up the wall and slid through my open window. I crawled up the wall, and crept up the ceiling, the bitter room silence, as well as the loomy fragrance of alcohol drafted against my nostrils.

I webbed the door, my breaths abruptly hitch, at the tensity; and the anticipation of Michael's booming footsteps, storming This way to greet me with another excruciating, pummeling.With an inaudible huff, I slowly and quietly sliding it shut.

I lept down, it took a brief minute to let my thoughts sink in. I Solemnly whispered aloud, an odd sense of dejavu seemed to hit me when i least expected it. Then, I'd take Dejavu over getting my ass kicked anyday.

Then another thing hit me, as I glanced to the bed- my heart nearly skipping a beat- like for some reason I was robotically expecting ned to be chilling on my bed; a Lego fortress cradled in his lap. I rub my neck anxiously before calling out, just as a precaution. "uh..ned?"

I got no reply, so I knew the same thing wasn't about to go down again like before.

I quitely took off my suit and slid into my bed, and curled under the covers staring at my phone screen. I looked and saw 9 unread messages

Michael: you better not be At that God damn internship or I'm gonna whoop your fucking ass.
Received: 4:30 pm

Michael: hey bitch-boy, don't forget Be home by 5 or you're in deep shit when you get home.
Received: 4:49 pm

Michael: hey Dipshit I thought I told you to be home by 5
Received: 5:00

Ned: hey Peter are you okay? I haven't seen you since 6th hour, and you didn't look so good
Recieved: 3:56 pm

MJ: Hey loser, where were you at lunch today?
Received: 2:15 pm

Flash: hey Penis parker,
Why don't you just go fucking kill yourself. Everyone knows you're just a lying sack of shit.
Received: 5:01 pm

Flash: hey penis parker, you better finish my homework, And make it, perfect. If not
You know what's coming
Received: 4:55 pm

Michael: HEY BITCH BOY YOU'RE IN DEEP SHIT NOW
Received: 5:05 pm

Unknown number: Peter, it's Tony. Call me.
Recieved: 5:00 pm

It was 5:07 when I felt the tears roll down my cheeks. I hid under the blanket crying for almost 30 minutes before I here my phone Ring, and i jumped to turn it off.

I tried turning it off, but hit a random button that drove it into silence. I didn't know what I pressed, but I knew the phone was silent and that's all that mattered. Afterwords I listened closely to any sound, or sign that Michael is coming.
I let out a sigh of relief. Forgetting that my life sucks, and things don't ever end my way. Even when I really need a break.

Suddenly there was a loud noise that broke the silence. Loud stomping up to where I am.

I stared in sheer horror, as I heard his approach with my enhanced hearing.

Caution, run away, danger

I ignored my senses, stuck frozen. I was so scared I couldn't move. I felt completely helpless ass the tears Trickled down my swollen cheeks.
He broke the door, screaming at the top of his lungs.

"WHAT DID I SAY HUH? WHAT DID I SAY?!" He spat, then clenched his teeth
"P-Please." I managed to yelp, feeling helpless and terrified;
Knowing it wouldn't have done anything.

he drags me from the bed by my ankle and slams my head down against the, ice cold floor.
"W-Wait I'm Sorry! Please!" I yelped, again in hopes he would at least stop and think, although I knew he wouldn't no matter what.

Then, there was this subtle tingle in my brain, as I looked into his demon like eyes when he bashes his fists into my face. Repeatedly.
"DIDN'T I TELL YOU NOT TO FUCK WITH ME?!?" he screams in my face. I...would've tried to free myself if the voice in my mind would've allowed me to.

Stop struggling peter, you know you deserve this, you let half your family die.

"IT'S YOUR FAULT SHE'S GONE!!! NOW I HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF YOUR PATHETIC, UNGREATFUL ASS" he screamed through his teeth. rage filled his eyes, to pools of Darkness. For some reason, I saw a glint of fire in the center.
I stopped struggling, and my body started giving out, as everything Went in slow motion.

The fear Had held me captive. When I struggled I found myself hurting even more. It was then i realised,

'maybe I'm not good enough to be spider-man...'

'Maybe I'm not even good enough
to be Peter parker...'

'Maybe I should just die.'

'I deserve to hate myself don't I?'

Eventually, I found relief in his strong hands. They overpowered me more times then i can count, but they've made every beating bearable. Because as soon as he coils his Huge strong hands around my neck, I always found myself slipping into a Sea of Darkness; and fade into unconsciousness.
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Authors note: yeah I know, you guys probably get pretty tired of these short chapters, but I'm the Brightside I've been planning ahead, not every chapter will be short.
Thanks for reading. See you
In chapter 4!