Can and Sanem, a love story

"Question yourself Can !"

Summary : The deep conversation Sanem and Can should have had a long time ago is finally happening. 

Sanem didn't know how to react. She saw Can in the hut - their sacred hut - with Polen. She had a hand on his leg and Sanem was not sure if Can was really annoyed by her gesture. Was he sorry that Sanem had seen them, was he comfortable with Polen being here, did he call her ? Sanem knew that by lying to Can once again, she put herself in a complicated situation. She went from being the hero, saving her man from jail to being a liar again. She tried to tell him, so many times. She really tried, but then she listened to Emre and Leyla, and Can didn't stop interrupting her. Oh she knew that she couldn't blame anyone but herself though. Because she always found a good excuse to talk about something else. Because she was scared of his reaction, because she knew he would leave her, that once again he would be disappointed by the only woman he ever loved. 

And she was right, he was disappointed and he did run away. But this time, Sanem decided that she would not listen to anyone else, that it was up to her to make things better. So she followed him to Agva, where he had planned a surprise for them. Of course the surprise was postponed and he went there alone, but it was out of the question for her to miss the chance to be alone with him, so she drove to the location without him knowing. When he saw her, at the reception, he was his cold self once again. He really wanted to be alone and he sure didn't want to see Sanem. But he didn't have the choice anymore now. 

She spent the whole day trying to catch his attention but it didn't work and now, the night was coming. It was time for Sanem to have some courage, that courage she couldn't find in the first place after she gave her perfume to Fabri. So, she knocked on his door. No response. She tried again, but still no answer. She decided to leave a note under his door, asking him to join her in her room whenever he wanted. She waited the whole night, but he never came. Maybe this time she went too far ? 

No. No way, she was not ready to take the whole blame for this situation. She was on a mission now. She ran through the stairs to the restaurant where the clients were having breakfast. That's where she saw Can drinking tea... not alone. Next to him was a beautiful blond woman : Polen. Oh girl you are so dead, said Sanem's inner voice. Like a storm, she entered the room and stopped just in front of them both. 

"That's what you call needing some time alone?" she screamed. Every faces around them stopped eating and started staring at the angry brunette. 

"Sanem, please don't make a scene", whispered Can. 

"Am I making a scene ? Am I ? So what ?", she screamed again.

"Sanem, maybe it is not the right time to have this conversation", said Polen with a satisfied smile.

"Did I ask for your opinion Polen ? Maybe it is not the right time for you to chase my boyfriend. Damn are you that desperate ?" Sanem couldn't contain her anger. It was like everything she always wanted to say but never did was ready to come out from her mouth. Knowing her very well, Can stood up and took her arm with authority asking her to follow him in a more quiet place. Once in his room, Sanem started yelling again. 

"Now I understand why you never came in my room last night ! I see you were very busy ! And how classy from both of you to have some breakfast just in front of me. What a cute couple. What was this 'you are the only woman I ever loved' bullshit Can ! I -". Sanem was hysterical, she was so mad. Can had never seen her in such a mood. 

"SHUT UP !", Can started screaming too. "Do you really think what I told you was bullshit? Don't you have any trust in me?"

"I don't know, I come here to fix things and I find you with your ex, how do you call this?"

"I didn't ask you to come Sanem !"

"No you didn't, but that's what normal people do when they have issues, they don't run away!" The tension was so high, Sanem was sure the people in the hotel could all hear them. 

"Don't you know things when it comes to running away Sanem ?"

"Excuse me?" Ok now was maybe the time to speak about all their issues, because clearly things had been hidden for way too long.

"You keep running away from me because you keep running away from your responsibilities. You lied AGAIN, Sanem. Haven't you learned anything from your first mistakes?". Can was clearly hurt, thinking one more time about the time she betrayed him, and he couldn't help but think she did it once again.

"Question yourself Can ! Why do you think I am so scared to tell you the truth !"

"Because you are a coward maybe ?". Round two of the screaming party. 

"When you get mad nothing else matters Can ! You lost your best friend Metin without giving him a chance to explain himself. You got jailed because you punched Fabri ! You could be in prison right now if I didn't do what I do ! But look at your reaction, tell me I was not right to be scared. Look at us !"

The room went silent for a few seconds. Can lowered his voice when he saw Sanem with so many tears in her eyes. She was right, he was overreacting most of the time, but he would never, ever hurt Sanem or scream at her at the point she would feel in danger. He sat on the sofa, taking his face in his hands. And asked : "Are you scared of me?" This thought was hurting him so much. Sanem kneeled in front of him, putting her hands on his legs. 

"I am not scared of you Can. I never was and never will", she answered, caressing his cheek. "But the thought of losing you is haunting me". She felt a lump in her throat saying these words. "I am scared of you leaving and never coming back, I am scared of you finding another girl, prettier, smarter, funnier. I am scared of you getting bored with me. It's not you I don't trust when I see other girls around you, it's me, it's them."

"You are losing me everytime you lie to me Sanem..." he said, his eyes filled with tears, taking the hand she still had on his face, in his. "You gave Fabri your perfume, I thought you understood how it means to me, to us, and you didn't even tell me the truth after you did it".

"What was I supposed to do ? He was suing you, you had no chance against his complaint. Tell me you wouldn't have done the same for me? I won't believe you if you say no."

One more time, the room when silent. Can stood up, took Sanem's hands, and asked her : "Do you really think I could go with another woman ? Did I ever make you believe that you are not the only one in my heart ? I proposed you Sanem, and you said no. Everytime I wanted to make it official between us, you rejected me. I made a ring for you, I can't give you any more proof of my love for you..."

"But Polen - "

"For some reason she knew I was there, she thought that I was alone, she thought that we broke up and that she could take her chance. She arrived this morning. I didn't join you last night not because I was with her, I didn't join you because I needed to think about all of this. When you arrived and saw us, I was telling her to leave because I would never come back with her. If you ask me to stop overreaction, I ask you the same. If you doubt, talk to me. If you are scared, talk to me. If you are sad, talk to me. If you need some help, talk to me. Talk to me. Just talk to me."

Sanem was crying and Can, like he always did, was wiping off her tears. Both were relieved by this talk. After a few seconds of them staring at each other, they hugged, and he kissed her in the neck, then on the forehead, and he whispered "I love you" to her ears. "I love you too", she answered, still crying. 

"I am sorry I lied", she added. 

"I am sorry I made you lie", he concluded before kissing her lips with a soft and beautiful kiss, his hands on both of her cheeks, hers wrapped around his neck.