Your Beautiful Eyes ~Kiribaku~

I Can't Do This

Bakugo's POV
"HOW THE HELL WOULD YOU KNOW WHAT IT'S LIKE TO BE ME!!!" I snapped at him. I think I said too much... or did I? I wasn't just crying, I was weeping and screaming. I continued to cry when something happened. I suddenly felt warmth on my lips. I looked up to see Kirishima KISSING me!!!! For some reason, I didn't do anything right away.  Just about the opposite, I closed my eyes and kissed back. It was my first kiss, probably my last but it didn't feel wrong. We kissed for a few seconds until I snapped back into reality. I pushed him away quickly. His eyes were the same... nothing had changed. Words couldn't express how I felt,  maybe it's cuz I didn't even know how I felt. The words that did come out of my mouth though , "I-i can't... Kirishima I'm sorry, please forget I said anything. You're not meant for me, and I'm clearly not ready for anyone. I'm sorry." I ran home that night crying. Not knowing what to do. "I can't take it anymore! I can't go falling in love again, it hurts too much, knowing that I'm never going to be loved back. No matter who I love nothing will change."(Am I the only person that talks to myself while crying??? NOT ANYMORE Bakugo has officially joined the anxiety club!) The kiss had no effect on him whatsoever. We aren't soulmates! I don't have one, never will. But why did it feel so right? Why did it feel like time stopped in only a couple of seconds? Why do I want to do it again?! These type of thoughts flew through my brain, as i ran home. After noticing that I was almost home, I tried to stop crying so my mom wouldn't notice. I walked in the door and my mom was in the kitchen cooking. She didn't look at me, but she did hear me walk in. " Hi honey!! How was school?" She looked up and clearly saw that I had been crying, "Honey!? Please don't cry anymore, I'm sure something will come up eventually! You just have to wait, I'm positive that one day, a beautiful girl that cares will enter your life. Stay strong until that happens!" My mom says this a lot. But I'm not the only one who can tell she's lying. She knows that I won't ever have a soulmate. She just wants me to feel better, which makes sense cuz she's my mom. I slowly walked into my bedroom.  I sat up in bed,  while staring at my wall.  Suddenly,  I felt completely numb.  I couldn't move. Then flashbacks flew through my brain at, what felt like 100mph. I was breathing heavily and quickly.  I couldn't cry, I couldn't move.  The only thing my body could do at the time was scream.  I couldn't see anything either. I didn't know this,  but my mom ran into the room.  She said,  "Oh no! It's happening again!?" That I could hear.  After what felt like forever, I fell asleep. 

Kirishima's POV
(  This is taking place when he kissed Bakugo)
This guy told me that he has no soulmate.  But that's impossible... right? I didn't know what to do.  It's kinda weird,  it felt like we had some sorta connection right now.  It made my chest ache, looking at him like this. I wanted to make him feel loved. Something came over me, it was almost like my body was moving on its own. I leaned in and kissed him. It was. . . Amazing! I was taking it all in,  when it suddenly stopped.  It kinda made me disappointed after it ended. He pushed me away, he looked like he was gonna cry. He stood up and walked towards my door,  "I-i can't. Kirishima I'm sorry, forget I said anything. You're not meant for me, and I'm clearly not ready for anyone. I'm sorry. " with that he exited my room, and I heard my front door open and shut. That's when I had finished processing what happened.  I could feel my face getting hot.  Wait! He just left!!  I thought this to myself before getting up and running to the door.  I walked out, but I was too late.  Bakugo was already gone.  "Dammit!" I said to myself , stomping one foot. I would've ran after him,  but I didn't know what direction his house was at. I decided that I would talk to him at school, the next day.  But little did I know, that would be harder than expected...