Silent all these years

Chapter 4: Swipe Left or Right?

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Kim couldn't stop thinking about Shannon. Aggravated tears streamed down her face as she paced in Ron's living room. "I need closure." She announced loudly. 

"Yes, you do." Marissa agreed as she looked up from her People magazine. Her long curly blonde hair snagged on the page she was turning. "Burn her photo or something." 

That made Kim mad. "I won't burn anything. I just  . . . need to move on." 

"Four years without a lover, you sure as hell do." Marissa said as Ron brought in three cups of coffee. 

Ron looked away and grimaced at those words. It was still weird that Kim loved Shego. 

Kim drank the hot liquid and yelped in pain. "Idiot." She said to herself. 

Marissa laughed. "We can make you a dating profile. You like dark haired dominating women, right?" 

Kim's eyes went wide. "Oh hell no! We are NOT doing that." 

"Gay club then?" Marissa said, raising her eyebrows in a sexy way. 

Kim looked disgusted. "Nothing, Marissa. All of this isn't easy for me." 

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"Right, since you've only loved one girl that's never even thought of you that way." Marissa said, putting her magazine down and stood up. "Closeted Kim needs a new adventure. There's tons of women that would do anything to sleep with you." 

Kim felt odd about that. She only wanted one woman. A woman she feared dead, but still optimistic about her being alive. "Please just let me do things when I'm ready to." 

Ron gave her a small hug. "I'll pray that you find some peace with letting Shannon go." 

Kim felt comfort in her best friend. She hugged him back tighter. "Thanks, Ron." 

Marissa sipped her coffee, hoping that soon Kim would be on her way and she could have snuggle time with her husband. "If you want to go anywhere and check some ladies out let me know! We'll have a gay ole time!" She said and laughed at her comment. 

Kim went over to her. "You talk like you've been with a woman before." 

Marissa wasn't shy. "Yes, I have been with women before and Ron knows. I don't brag about it, but I am open with my Bisexual side. 

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Kim was taken aback, Well that's something I really needed to know, she thought. "Okay, so I'll go now. Talk to you both soon." 

"Later." Marissa said as Ron walked with Kim to the door. 

"Not a huge fan." Kim complained about his wife. 

Ron sighed and tried to smile. "She thinks you want us back together like all the time. It's crazy." 

Kim rolled her eyes and opened the door. "I love you as my best friend in the whole world. I always will." 

Ron felt emotional and almost started to cry. Kim heard the raw emotion in his voice, "Take care, KP, and I love you too. I hope everything works out. I hope you heal and move on." 

Kim hugged him again extra hard and then hurried to her car. 

Ron closed the door and Kim cried in her car for almost ten minutes. Getting over Shannon was going to be so very hard. She hoped she could talk to Hego about her. Or would her tears be too much for him to take? 

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Four hours later Kim screamed so loud that she woke up her Siamese cat, "Sorry, Nattie." Nattie or Natalie her formal name rushed off going to hide somewhere. 

"Kim! Kim!" Ron yelled into the phone. "I'm so freaking sorry!" 

Kim angrily held the phone to her ear. "I'm gonna kill her!" 

"Please don't do that! Marissa, well she, um, she's just trying to be a friend and help." Ron blubbered. 

"Quit your crying, Ron, you can't help that your wife is a  . . . witch." 

Ron wiped his tears away. "Just look at the Tinder page, okay? Please, and don't kill my wife." 

Kim was so on edge right now. She smacked the wall with a hand and it didn't even hurt. "Fine, give me the info." 

Ron told her the passwords for the Tinder account. 

Kim hung up on him without a goodbye. 

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Kim sat there ten minutes going through various photos of women. None of them were Shannon. That's the only person she wanted right now. "This sucks." She said and closed the page. 

She dialed up Hego. "Hey," She said hearing his warm charming voice say, "Hello." Kim smiled to herself, "Wanna come over and hang with me?" 

"Sure, Kim, I'll be there when I can. Got some things to do first." Hego told her. 

Kim felt better already. "Great! Then I'll see you soon!" 

It was almost two hours later. The knock on her front door was loud and it startled her. Kim looked at the door strangely and wondered who other than Hego could it be. "Hello?" She called out. 

The knock came again and no one said anything. 

"Go away. I don't want any!" Kim yelled out and began to walk away. 

"Kim!" A familiar voice called out.  Kim ran to open the door and to her surprise there was Drakken. He was in black sweat pants and a Metallica t-shirt looking sad and holding a large jar of pickles. 

"I can't get this open no matter how hard I try." He said as a tear rolled down his face. "Shego always could get the damned lid open."