Out of my limit (REVISING)

Part 5: I Wish

After what happened feels like nawalan na ako ng gana. One-sided love ika nga. Saklap noh?

Pero keri pa rin. Isa ako sa mga cotillon dancers. My pair was Jared. Pero bakit bestfriend niya lang? Sana siya na lang kapares ko ngayon. Too bad, hindi naman siya kasali.

Pagkatapos sumayaw, umupo na kaagad ako sa assigned table and seats namin. Good thing rin at katabi ko si Miles. We just chat dahil wala naman kaming gagawin. We both aren't that too interested sa prom but we came here to experience. But probably the last experience in high school.

But then slow songs started to occupy the hall.

One Direction's song titled I Wish started and I was like, eyes are starting to be teary and I don't know the reason why.

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"He takes your hand, I die a little, I watch your eyes, and I'm in riddles, why can't you look at me like that?"
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Uminit yung mata ko but then I suddenly just burst into tears. Miles doesn't know dahil busy siya sa pagtingin sa mga sumasayaw. Good thing also, I wear permanent make-up kaya hindi siya kaagad malulusaw.

"When you walk by, I try to say it. But then I freeze and never do it, My tongue gets tied, the words get trapped,

I hear the beat of my heart getting louder whenever I'm near you,"

But then, mas lalong sumama ang sitwasyon. I saw them both, slowly dancing. Hands we're intertwined.

"But I see you, with him slow dancing, tearing me apart cause you don't see,"

Malagkit na titig nila sa isa't-isa. I know Liza liked Dandrei,too. Pakipot pa.

"Whenever you kiss him, I'm breaking, oh how I wish that was me,"

Kaya ko pa naman eh. Umiiyak hanggang tinitingnan silang dalawa na sumasayaw. But hindi naman ako bulgarang umiiyak, I was silently crying and my eyes were like water dispenser. Buhos lang ng buhos. Pahid naman ako ng pahid.

"He looks at you, the way that I would, Does all the things I know that I could, if  only time could just turn back. Cause I got three little words that I've always been dying to tell you,"

Okay, literally, hindi ko na kaya. I can't hold on to this breakdown. I excused myself and went to the bathroom. Ayokong makita. Masakit na nga ang magkaholding hands pa lang, tapos they were both slowly leaning and was about to... Kiss. Ayoko na.

I want to go home.

I was in the bathroom at rinig na rinig ko pa rin ang kanta, the bridge of the song, hit me even more,

"Put my hands on your waist while we dance in the moonlight, I wish it was me that you call later on cause you wanna say goodnight,"

Hanggang sa nakisabay na lang ako sa pagkanta, Hindi pa rin ako lumabas and just waited for the next song to play.

Another One Direction song started palying, "Night Changes"

"Going out tonight, changes into something rad, her mother doesn't like that kind of dress, everything she never had, she show her 'nough"

Paglabas ko, wala na si Miles sa upuan niya. I searched my eyes for her and for me to see na kasayaw niya si Marco. She's lucky, though.

"We're only getting older baby, and I've been thinking about you lately, does it ever drives you crazy, jusy how fast the night changes, it will never change, me and you"

I was waiting for someone to dance with me. There are some, nakisayaw ako pero saglit lang. Napagod ako sa kakaiyak. I wanted to go home.

I was actually hoping for him to dance with me. Para akong lasing at lutang kung sumayaw dahil, nakisayaw nga pero wala naman ako sa mood at naapakan ko pa ang mga paa nila. Pero atleast naman diba, hindi naman ako bastos para tangihan sila. I wanna give them the chance. I want to give myself a chance na baka may magical na mangyari pero wala.

I was too hopeless.
If I was her, would he love me the way he loved her?

I just really Wish I was her.

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A/n :
Lame. Huhuhu. :'(