》Starved《Fack

Chapter 26: Body Senses

Jack's P.O.V

"Hey, Jack Millie wants to go hang out tonight. I think I'm ready to tell her about us. Do you want to come with me?" Finn asked as he rubbed my shoulders. "Sure, Finn." I replied. I dont really want to go, but I dont want Finn to feel bad. "Really?" Finn days with a smile.

"Yes. Are you sure you want to tell her? You don't have too, Finn..." I said. "I want to. If I change my mind you'll know. Anyways, we have like a little bit so..." Finn leaned in and kissed me. I placed my hand to his chest and kissed him lightly.

He grabbed my hand and pushed me back onto the bed. "Finn..." I said quietly. "What baby?" He asked as he pressed our bodies together.  "I'm not in the mood.." I said. He kissed my neck softly and bit down on it, causing me to moan. "Are you in the mood now?" He asked.

"N-No. Please get off... I don't wanna right now. Maybe later?" I said and he rolled his eyes as he sat up. "Sure, Jack." He said with a sad smile. "Are you.. mad?" I asked. "What?" He looked over at me as I sat up. "Are you mad at me for not wanting to?" I asked and blushed.

"No! No. I'll never get mad at you for that babycakes.." Finn said and I scooted away from him a little bit. "I think I might want to stay here..." I whispered. "Jack." Finn grabbed my hand. "I'm not mad. I will NEVER be mad. If you dont want to do something neither do I." He said.

I began blushing and looked down. "Okay.." I said quietly. Finn squeezed my hand lightly. "Look at me." He said and I didn't. "Babe. Look at me..." He repeated himself. I sighed and looked over at him. "Don't feel bad or anything." He said.

I remained silent and looked down at my feet. "Okay, fine you dont have to say anything just know it's okay that you don't want to do anything. I'm not some heartless monster that just wants sex Jack." He said and my heart sided remembering the dare.

"I know you aren't. I love you. Just let me go... freshen up and we can meet Millie there." I said and stood up. "Oh, actually she needs to be picked up. Is that okay Jackie?" He asked and I mentally rolled my eyes. "Yeah, it's fine." I said and then walked into the bathroom.

I splashed my face off and stared into the mirror, examining my face. I took my shirt off and sighed at my wrist. I can't believe I tried to kill myself... I'm such an idiot I swear... I rolled my eyes once more and exited the bathroom.

Finns eyes went directly to my chest and I felt pretty uncomfortable. I practically ran to his dresser to grab a shirt. I picked out a plain white one and I wore his pastel pink hoodie. "You look so cute in my clothes." He smiled.

"Thanks Finnie." I flashed a fake smile. I wish I could be happy. I really do... I'm just really sad right now. "Finn." I said. "Yes Jack?" He said as he grabbed my hands. "Sit down. I need to ask you something important." I said with a sigh. He sat down and held my hands tightly.

"I'm listening baby boy..." Finn said quietly. "Why did you pressure me into drinking. No more lies. No more beating around the bush. Just give me a clear answer, Finn." I said. "I'm sorry..." He said and I looked up at him rasing a brow.

"It was a dare." He whispered. I let go of his hands and ran both of my hands through my hair. "You promised no more stupid dares." I said as I tried to stay calm. "I know babe... I'm sorry. No more dares from now on. No more at all." Finn took my hands.

I sighed loudly and looked away from Finn. "Jack please look at me." Finn said quietly. "I hate alchohol. I only drank it because you acted like it was okay and you told me I wouldnt get drunk." I said still not looking in his direction.

"I know. I feel like shit. What can I do to help you feel better?" Finn asked. "Go with Millie alone." I said. It honestly wouldn't make me feel better. I would rather be alone right now. "I can't leave alone." Finn said.

"You say you love me, yet you don't trust me alone? What about last night? At the party I was alone the whole time. You didn't care then." I said. "Jack, you're making me feel really bad." He sighed.

"I'm just stating facts. I guess if you dont trust me I'll go with you but dont expect me to be all happy buddy with Millie." I mumbled and stood up. He looked up at me. "Well? Come on let's go. This is what you want isnt it?" I said.

"Y-Yeah but... I just want you to stop being so mad at me." Finn said. "I'm not mad. I'm disappointed. Now, let's not keep precious Millie waiting." I walked down the stairs and said hello to his mom and slipped on my ugly converse.

I didnt wait for Finn and walked out to his car. I stood next to it and pulled on the door handle. It's locked. Great. Finn ran over to me. "Hey sorry I was talking to my mom. Let's go baby." He said and unlocked the door.

I sat in the back. "What are you doing?" Finn asked. "I'm just sitting back here so Millie can sit by you. I'm sure she would throw a hissy fit if she didn't get to sit by you." I buckled and looked out the window.

"Get up here. Now." He said in a serious tone and it sounded like a command. I flinched a little and got out of the car. I got into the passenger seat and faced the window. I felt myself tearing up but I wouldn't let myself look at Finn.

"Jack... Don't be upset with me. You shouldn't have to sit back there for her. You're my boyfriend and we are going to tell her..." He paused and placed his hand onto my thigh, "Together." He said and started the car.

I sighed and looked over at him. "Have you ever seen midsummer night's dream?" I asked. "What?" He said as he began driving to Millies. "A midsummer nights dream." I repeated. "Umm... no?" He said and rose a brow.

"Well, one of the main quotes from that movie is, the course of true love never ran smooth. I never believed it- until now." I said. "I love you so much Jackie baby..." Finn said. A tear slipped from my eye but I quickly wiped it away.

"I love you too but it's hard..." I said quietly. "What is baby." He said as he turned on his right blinker. "Loving you. I dont want you mad at me or anything, but it's true. You're the love of my life and it's fucking hard." I said as tears started streaking down my face.

Finn pulled over. "Stop." I said and looked away. He grabbed my chin and forced me to look at him. "Jack. I know it's hard. I do believe me. You're the love of my life Jack. We are gonna get married one day and be truly happy." He smiled slightly.

I closed my eyes and shook my head no. "You dont know that..." I said with a broken voice. "Baby boy... I promise you." He said as he pulled my face closer to his. I opened my eyes slowly as he began drying my tears.

He pressed a kiss against my lips and I felt a little calmer. I kissed him back softly and pulled away with a sad smile upon my face. "Let's go get Millie and try to have tonight okay?" I said as I sat back. "Okay babe." Finn replied and we stayed silent the whole way to Millies house.

I rolled my eyes as Millie ran to the car with a smile on her face. She got into the back and sat in the middle so she could see Finn. "Hey guys! I'm so excited!!" Millie squealed in my ear. I mimicked her. "Oh yeah? Me too!" I exclaimed and Finn pinched my thigh.

I mumbled under my breath and pushed his hand off of me. It hurt really bad because of my scars... "Where do you guys want to go?" Finn asked. "Dont care." I said. "How about we go skating and then out to eat?!" Millie said happily.

"Alright let's go." Finn said and started towards the skating rink. "I dont know how to skate so you have to teach me!" Millie said and hit Finns shoulder lightly. I looked out the window and rolled my eyes. This is gonna be a shitshow. I can sense it.

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