I'm considering joining the U.S Army.
Keyword "consider"
It's very much of an "on a whim" thought.
I mean, I've always been interested in the army. Seeing as my father's been in it since I was 4.
Plus war subjects were my fav in history class.
That and Attack On Titan's pretty lit.
I've never really thought of joining myself until like...literally 2 days ago.
My Dad's mentioned it before, my aunt too, like "yOu sHoUld jOIn tHe aRMy"
And I'd always brush off the thought.
But 2 days ago.
I was thinking about my future and thinking 'what am I gonna do with my life...yuh be an artist but HOW, yuh go to college but HOW, what will I do in my gap yearrr??'
I could learn to drive, get a job...WaIt a SeCoNd, I could join the ARMY.
And suddenly, the appeal became greater.
Well tbh, the real appeal began when our school had a little veterans assembly not too long ago.
But I forgot about that till now.
I began looking up shiz about it.
It's very scarrryy, but oddly interesting???
I think I gotta be in active duty for at least 3 or 4 years to get them to pay for my college.
I'm not too sure yet, but if sooo...
During that time I could literally be deployed.
When I lived down in Louisiana, my dad was deployed to Iraq for a year.
A YEAR, and I think he was supposed to be there longer.
He's also been sent to other places (Afghanistan, Korea, etc) while he was in active duty, but those lasted weeks or months.
I'm scared that I'm joining for the wrong reason...that being "no reason"...
I don't wanna regret going.
Perhaps I just want my life to be more exciting.
Cuz man is it boring as all helll, and the future looks much more boring...
All I can do is art, but lucky me, I'm naturally fit (or at least naturally able to be fit) soooo armyyyyy!
I was gonna wait to tell my mom, but I ended up telling her today.
She was like, "I think it would be a v good idea, I do not oppose, etc etc."
She proceeded to tell my sis and I about basic training and other stuff she knew about, based on what papa's told her from the past.
She seems to really want ness to join because she doesn't really have any talents, Mami believes (from what my sis told me) the only successful future nessa's got is the army.
or rather "THE AIRFORCE"
I don't like that, its basically pressuring ness to join just cuz she doesn't know what to do for the future.
AHEM ME.
My mom's like "Join the air forceee, my mother and grandfather were in the airforce. Vietnamm etc."
She says cuz it's easier.
I've not done any airforce research, but in my current mindset I don't WANNA join the airforce, I want the US ARMY!
I hear the marines is the hardest one...
I'm still doing alotta research okk.
AND IM STILL GONNA BE AN ARTIST.
AND IF I DIE, TREAT MY WORKS AS MY DIARIES
FOR I AM THE ILLUSTRATED VERSION OF ANNE FRANK
...If I decide on going.
