It's finally dawning on me.
Bruh I'm out this piece on May 30th, that's 2 months (3?)
Talked to my mom about staying in North Carolina,
She's like "But when are ya'll coming back?"
And I'm like "We may not."
I'm starting to feel bad, Im not sure what the plan is yet, but if I do go to North Carolina and ship off from there, I may not see my fam for a long time. (besides graduation)
Cuz after Basic and AIT, they station you somewhere in America, or in some other country.
I'm hella excited to leave, but I'm sad about my mom. Not like she's all that great, I just know she's a very lonely person and she's gonna be mUCH more lonely without us.
And rip my bro whose gonna have to deal with that reck while we gone.
My mom said if we stay in North Carolina to go through enlistment, she'll drive all the way there to see us off.
"Even if I gotta drive there." she said.
Im scared for her, she's such a scairdy cat on the road, the thought of her driving 8 hours there and back makes me worried for her safety.
Tho shes driven long distances before, that was back when she was young and wild and free.
Maybe Michael will drive her, that would make me feel better.
I'd feel salty if it was only her seeing us off, she best bring Michael and Andrei.
Tho I don't think I've ever seen Michael and my dad near each other before...
Same with my mom and my stepmom.
Yuck thoughts.
But man imma really be gone.
The thought is wilden.
I wanna do this in NC cause I believe I'd get better military direction from my father, rather than my mother.
Grown-up life is here, just a few steps away... eeshhh.
PS.
I don't give a damn, after AIT I might get a tattoo reading "Despite everything, it's still you."
Because it's one of my favorite quotes from Undertale, I'm not ashamed to have that on me forever. It'll perhaps remind me of simpler times when I'm going through some shit.
gnight world
