Dear Richie,
I think I'm gonna stop writing letters to you for a while.
It's just that when I write to you, all the pain comes back, it washes over me like a tidal wave and it hurts really badly. I don't think it's good for me. Maybe you'd think it's best if I just move on. I won't stop forever though, I'll write to you once in a while, I'm still healing...sometimes I have nightmares of you. It's you dying over and over again, sometimes you try to kill me...and I know you would never do that, but it still scares me.
I told myself I was better, turns out I was lying. Maybe I was okay...for a little bit, that doesn't mean I didn't cry myself to sleep at night thinking of you, and it doesn't mean that I stopped thinking of death...
it hurts...and when someone mentions your name, I feel this pain in my heart, memories come back to my mind, the death of you comes back...and then I wanna cry and cry and cry.
I'm sorry. Please don't be mad at me Richie. I think I still need help, I need to forget you for a little bit...writing these letters just make things a bit harder, plus...it's not like you'll ever see them, it's just useless.
Goodbye for now. I miss you everyday.
Love,
Eds ♥️
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(A/N: The first chapter of my new Reddie book, Broken Promises is out. Please read it! It would mean a lot! <3)
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FanfictionEddie Kaspbrak and Richie Tozier are best friends, though everyone knows they have something special. Eddie tries to ignore his feelings for Richie, he tells himself that he doesn't like his tall tough best friend, but feelings don't just go away...
