Sick ( A Randy Fanficton)

don't yell

Jacks P.O.V

I wake up to a sleepy brooklyn by my side on his phone. I stretch and he rolls over to look at me. "goodmorning" he says unenthusiastically. "What's wrong" I ask. "i don't really know" he says. "Just one of those days?" I ask sweeping some hair out of his eyes. He nods and says "i just feel a little down today." Avoiding eye contact. "Hey look at me" I say. he tilts his head up and looks at me. I mentally coo at his dragon eyes. "I love you, and today is a lazy day so we can lay in bed or listen to music or do anything really. We can eat lots and lots of ice cream" I say with a smile. He gives me a quick fake smile then looks down. "It's okay" I say and wrap my arm around him.

Ryes P.O.V

I wake up to an empty bed. I climb down my loft bed to find Andy in his room looking in his mirror, hands on his stomach. I can tell that he is gonna have a hard time with how he looks today. "Hey" I speak up and he looks at me shocked. "Oh hey...i was just-" he starts "judging yourself?" i cut him off. "no" he says looking down. He doesnt like it when I catch him. He know it upsets me. "Andy, remember when I told you i can see your good days and your bad days just by the way you look in the mirror" i ask. "yeah" he says but it's more of a whisper. "Turn back around" I say" and he does and faces the mirror again. "I can tell your good days from your bad days but i still dont know what you see. What you think about yourself." i start. "Look at yourself and tell me what you see" I say now sitting on the edge of his bed. He sighs and says "I think that i look better with blonde hair but I feel like it makes me fake to dye it blonde, I think I blush too much, I have this feeling everyone secretly hates me but pretends to like me, I think im way too short for my age, I think that even though im considered skinny im fat...way too fat for my liking, I think my depression and anxiety get the best of me, I think my hands are awkward and I feel like i ramble too much" He says. My heart shatters with each thing. "this is what you think other people think of you isn't it?" i ask. "yeah" he replies. I walk behind him and put my hands around his waist. "well i see beautiful blonde hair that makes your eyes pop, i think when you blush its cute and it makes me wanna kiss you all over, i can promise more people love you than you know, your short yes but it is absolutely adorable, you're not fat you are perfect your tummy is perfect and i love it, you cant help that you have depression and anxiety but i think you are very very strong and handle it very well but im always here to help you through whatever may be thrown at you, and i absolutley love when you ramble." I finish turning him around to face me. I kiss him lightly and he pulls me closer. " I love you, I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you" he says. "I love you too baby" I say.

Jacks P.O.V

It's been about an hour and a half ive been in my room and the house is quiet. I find rye on the couch in the kitchen area on his phone I sit down next to him and sigh. "Sup man" he says. " Brook is having an emotional day today" I say. "Andy is too" He says. "I hate these days, he always feels so helpless and i don't know how to make him feel better so I just hold him." I say with tears in my eyes. I am now sitting on the edge of the couch and he sits up next to me and puts his hand on my back. "It's getting to you too" he says. with a sigh. "What do you mean?" I ask him. "The house house is just plauged with sadness today. It's taking a toll on you too now. I just lean into him and stay quiet. "It feels like the world is ending, even though i know it's not, and i don't know why it feels like the world is ending...it just does" I say as more of a whisper genuinely confused. "The nice things about these days is that we wake up the next day and we feel amazing." he says. "We cant be happy all the time though, it's not humanly possible so after so long of us being happy we tend to have these sad days just being upset for no reason. It will pass" he finishes standing up and reaching out for me to grab his hand and pull myself up. I take it and pull him into a hug whispering a thank you before retreating back to my room, to a sleeping brook.

Ryes P.O.V

I sit back down after talking to jack and get a text on my phone.

Fovvs<3 : I need you to come upstairs but dont yell at me...okay?

I don't understand why i would be mad or yell at him.

Me: Okay?

I head up the stairs to his bedroom and open the door to see...

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HIIIIIIII! I'M SORRY I LEFT YOU ON THIS CLIFFHANGER.

The next chapter has mentions of self harm so if you are senitive to that i willput a warning at the beginning of the chapter.