Imperfections (Zalfie)

Zoe

It was the last day of Playlist Live and I'd had a really great time. I know it was only about 3 days but overall, it was great. Yes, I did have a little bit of a breakdown the first night, but my anxiety went really bad and Alfie and I went back to the hotel. I felt really bad taking him away from a good night but I was so greatful he was by my side.

We were about to get on the flight back to London then a taxi to Brighton. I was happy to be going home because I do get a little homesick, but I'm going to miss America. It's my first time here, but I love it already.

We boarded the plane just like we did on the way here, and off we went back to rainy London.

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Niomi and I were back at our flat and really put off unpacking. I couldn't be bothered, bleh.

I haven't been feeling very well. but I just put it off as a little bug. I just hope no one else catches it.

I was sitting on the couch with Niomi and it was about 10pm.

"Want a toastie?" Niomi asked

I nodded, feeling hungry all of a sudden.

Niomi went into the kitchen and came back a mere 10 minutes later with 2 plates of toasties. We ate out toasties and watching Netflix.

Just as I finished eating, I felt my stomach churn. Oh god. I hate being sick, I have a fear of vomit.

I grabbed my stomach and ran to the bathroom, throwing up repeatedly into the toilet. I felt someone pull my hair back and gathered it was Niomi.

I was grateful for her being here but I don't like being sick infront of people. It's even worse than being sick on my own.

I finished throwing up the toastie and flushed the toilet, brushing my teeth. I noticed I was crying and sighed deeply.

"Zoe" Niomi started hesitantly, "Do you want to go to a doctor?" She asked

I thought about it before shaking my head, "I'm sure it's just a bug, I'll be fine"

"I don't think it is Zo" She replied, "Have youu and Alfie, you know?"

I knew what she meant. Had Alfie and I had sex. I thought about it. The night Alfie took me back to the hotel, 4 nights ago. Can it happen that quick? Thinking back to it, I don't think Alfie used protection.

I looked at Niomi worriedly, "No, Niomi I can't be" I started panicking.

"It's okay" She soothed me, "We'll go out into town tomorrow and get a test. It'll be okay"

Alfie and I had only been going out a few months, what if he leaves me? Then I'm all alone with this baby to look after and all the responsibility. I always think of the worst case scenarios, but you never know.

"Why don't you go to sleep?" Niomi suggested.

I nodded, going into the bedroom and falling asleep, letting all my worries drift away with me.

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