As I hear the screams of the Dauntless, I know that I am close to The Pit, where the rankings banquet is being held. I walk with Christina, Will, and Uriah.
We enter the Pit, and separate, Uriah going to sit with the Dauntless Borns, and Christina, Will, and I going to sit at our own table.
I watch Eric give his speech about bravery, and hear the fists pounding against the table. I can't help but smile. I believe in Bravery, and I know right now- that this faction is where I belong.
Not even seconds later, the board with the rankings lights up, and I scan from the bottom to the top- looking for my name.
1. Tris
2. Uriah
3. Lynn
4. Marlene
5. Christina
6. Will
7. Peter
Peter Stays. Ugh.
And the rest of the rankings are Dauntless Borns. I can't believe I got first. Everyone congratulates me.
Tobias walks up to me.
"Do you think a hug would give away too much?" He asks.
"You Know What? I really don't care." I say, and stand on my tip toes to kiss him full on the lips.
I hear gasps throughout the room, and Christina's mouth is hanging open. Uriah, Will and Zeke even do spit-takes. I laugh and pull back.
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Today we choose our jobs. Tomorrow we get apartments. I have to admit that I am pretty nervous. I am going to choose to be a leader. Tobias decided to take a job as a leader yesterday, so they only want two initiates to be leaders this year.
Christina said that she is going to be a nurse, and Will is going to be a doctor. That way they can be together all day. Once I think about my choice once more, I hear: "Tris." Max calls, snapping me out of my daze.
"I, I.... I uh," I swallow, feeling the nervousness inch up my spine and into the back of my throat. I can't speak. I can't think. Everything runs together. I see Tobias in the corner of the room, his deep blue eyes making me quiver.
"I will, I will choose Dauntless Leader, and Initiate Trainer." I stumble in my words, then turn to the electronic board behind me, and tap initiate trainer and Dauntless Leader. The crowd claps and screams.
I watch the others pick their jobs. Uriah-Dauntless Leader and Trainer, Christina-Nurse and Trainer, Will-Doctor, Marlene-Store Owner, Lynn-Weapon Lab Guard
Everyone else is forced to work at the fence.
After the Ceremony, I walk down to Tobias, and give him a quick kiss. "Congratulations." Tobias says. "Thanks." I say.
We're walking to the party to celebrate the new members, and Tobias grabs my wrist. I gasp. "What?" I ask angrily. I don't know why he has to all of a sudden grab my wrist like that.
"Were you having second thoughts?" He asks, his facial expression showing intense confusion.
"Second thoughts about?" I insinuate.
"About working with me." He says, "I knew you didn't love me like I thought you did." He rambles on, and I finally cut him off.
"What makes you even think that? I just didn't like standing in front of all those people. God, what's wrong with you right now Tobias? You seem so on edge." I state, pulling my wrist free of his grip and crossing my arms.
"I don't know," he says after looking around behind him. "I feel like something is going to happen. Something bad. We're not safe." He whispers into my ear. I feel his lips tickle my ear, and I shudder.
"What makes you think we're not safe?" I ask.
"Follow me. We can't talk here." He says. I reluctantly follow him.
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I leap off of the train, feeling free as a bird when I fly through the air, before landing on the ground with a thud shakily. It reminds me of my first time jumping on and off the train.
Tobias jumps off behind me, and then smiles at me. "Follow me." He says quietly, and I do so wholeheartedly. We make our way through tall, dew covered grasses and quickly approach something that makes my Ike grow even wider. Navy Pier- the Ferris wheel. Tobias turns and grabs my hand, and we then begin to run toward the Ferris Wheel. There's a large cement platform beneath it, and that's where we sit. We sit in silence for a while, until I finally speak up, remembering our past conversation.
"What makes you think we're not safe?" I ask him.
He licks his lips before speaking. "I found something on all of the security cameras," he begins, before looking up at the city skyline before us.
"The leaders of Erudite are planning an attack. They want us all dead. By us I mean the Divergents." He whispers the last part.
"I just want you to know that if anything happens to either of us- that I love you. And if I die,
I never wanted to leave you, Tris." He then firmly presses his lips to mine, and I snake my arms around his neck.
He turns to push me against the concrete wall of the platform, then kisses me ever so slowly, ever so tenderly.
It's in these moments that I find my courage. I still haven't gained enough to stop being afraid of intimacy- but I know that I will soon- and that day will be the day that I know that I have given myself up to Tobias, and that he has given himself up to me.
And I look ever so forward to that day and all that it brings.
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Tobias proposes that we go to his apartment- I doubt I'll ever stay in mine.
We sit down on the couch.
He kisses my lips softly, his hands sprawling across my skin. "And where is this leading to?" I raise my eyebrows. He smirks.
He mimics Christina's voice. "A little addition, multiplication." I bite my lip. He knows I'm afraid of intimacy, and even though I'm still gaining courage and am working up to it, I'm still scared of it.
"No, Four." I tell him. He furrows his eyebrows at me. "Don't use that name as a weapon against me, Beatrice."
"You know that I'm afraid of intimacy and sex and just...love, and you say that? You want us to do that?" I ask, feeling as if I'm about to snap. We've been having such a good day and then he does this? Why?
"You're gonna have to get over that fear someday. Tris, how are we ever going to move any further in this relationship if you're too scared to go further?" He speaks. I begin to sob as he pulls me to his chest.
"You-you see a future?" I ask him, my bottom lip quivering as I hold my hem of my shirt in my hands.
"Yes," he says. "And I want to give you my all. I love you, Tris. Can't you see that?" He asks me. Tears blur my vision as I slam my lips to his.
He's right. I do need to lighten up and go with it. I pull away, only for a second, enough time to speak, "I can see that Tobias, and I want to give you my all too." I slam my lips to his once again, and this time, I don't pull away, I only ever seem to kiss him harder.
He picks me up as I kiss him, slipping my shaking hands underneath his shirt. He holds the hem of my shirt in his hands. He looks at me for approval. I nod shakily.
With that, he slips it over my head and kisses my skin. All I want to do is shout "Stop!" And just cuddle, but I can't. I am a live wire, charged with electricity. I want him. My emotions are scrambled as we barrel toward the bedroom, our lips still attached to each other.
a/n: it sucked. This whole chapter sucked. I've been trying to put more detail in since I get a lot of criticism about it being too fast, so there! Convergent will be better, though. 🌞
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FanfictionWhat if the 'Tracking Device' was actually just a tracking device? What would life be like if everyone was still alive? Four and Tris never got to live the life they should have. But, if the war hadn't happened, would they?
