Never Really Royal (Harry and Meghan Fanfiction)

Life and Death

Half way through December, on the girls' final day of term before the Christmas holidays, Mom's pregnancy was announced. Her and Dad were both working today, which was why the news had been announced. You could tell that she was pregnant and the six of us were about to go on a short tour in The Netherlands. That meant that I was in Windsor, with Poppy, Holly and Alfie. Mom and Dad were up in Scotland today, so went up late last night and weren't returning until late tonight, before we flew to Holland tomorrow. Looking after the three of them reminded me of when the girls and I stayed back in London, while Mom and Dad were in Australia, when she announced she was pregnant with Alfie. And now here we are just over a year later, when the same thing is happening again.

I had just got back from dropping the girls off at school. Alfie crawled around the kitchen while I cleaned the mess from this morning's breakfast before I took him upstairs and put him down for a nap. I went back downstairs and grabbed my laptop from the sofa in my living room before going into the kitchen and beginning to write my blog.

Dear Daddy Cool,

Well, it would appear that we are here again. I'm going to be a big sister for the fourth time and just like every other time, I could not be more excited. The girls are excited as well. Last night we told them and they ran around the kitchen shouting and running and high-fiving, as if they had just won gold medals at the Olympics. It was adorable and it was an absolute pleasure to send them off to school this morning, on top of the world. They haven't stopped talking about it since then, and I'm sure Alfie would be just as excited if he understood what the rest of us were on about.

And as for Mom and Dad. They are just as ecstatic. Just like they were the first time. And that is my favourite thing to see. I always thought, before Mom had the twins that it would be me forever. I never thought I would be here, ten years down the line that I would be about to become a big sister for the fourth time. I know that she wasn't exactly overjoyed when she found out she was pregnant with me. She was just about to go to college, and you were barely there and she was 18 and at that moment in time, having a baby was not on the agenda. But well it happened and there she was with a baby at 19, who's Dad was on the other side of the Atlantic Ocean. And it wasn't the best situation to be in, but she put all of that past her because of the love that she had for me.

And then, when I was 12, she became aware she was in the same situation. Trevor never wanted children, and that was something Mom accepted because she loved him. She had me, and she couldn't imagine loving anyone as much as she loved me. But when she became pregnant, Trevor's feelings about not wanting children became very apparent and it was very clear, very quickly, that she was going to end up raising them alone. This changed her entire pregnancy, like it had done with mine. Pregnancy for Mom became a time of hurt and worry and fear, and that for me was one of the most horrible things to watch.

But now, Mom pregnant, is my favourite thing to watch. She has found herself someone who loves her, who loves her children as much as she does. And it is absolutely amazing to see the two of them both feel the same about their children. Since they have had Alfie, I have seen their relationship go from strength to strength because the love that they both share for that boy is absolutely adorable. He brings the two of them together and I know that the new baby will do exactly the same.

But what I'm writing to say is that, I wanted to say thank you to you. Thank you for not breaking Mom's heart so much that it meant she believed she could never love anyone again. Because if you had, then I don't think she would be here, married to the man of her dreams about to have their second child. But at the same time, I think her loosing you meant she was strong enough to raise the girls and I so well, and be such an amazing mother.