1/2 - cheronica fanfic

21: veronica

she should have kissed cheryl. 

why didn't she kiss her? that would've been the perfect time to kiss her, just in front of the sunset, heads resting on each other, the romantic sound of the sweetwater river's waves crashing against the sand. plus veronica had basically confessed her feelings for cheryl already, what else could the line 'i probably shouldn't like you as much as i do, but i can't help it' mean?? oh yeah, right. if cheryl really hadn't had a friend in 5 years, she probably just assumed that that had just been a 'best friends' moment. veronica facepalmed. why did she have to like the one girl that didn't know what a romantic, love confessing line was?? the one person, in the whole world... but she was still so beautiful. she was hilarious and to be honest, even during those ten minutes in the car when they had finished having their fight, veronica had felt lost without her. what would she do now without her best friend? would she have to sit with betty and jughead and kevin and archie at lunch? she didn't want to hang out with them. they were so gossipy, did you hear about this, oh my god did you see that, it was so dumb when [insert name] did this, and blah blah blah. it had all just become noise to veronica. at least when her and cheryl talked about other people they joked about it, not in a mean way, but in a lighthearted, honest way. if that made sense. 

during that car ride, veronica had stressed herself out so much that it had turned into anger. how could cheryl do this to her? they had been a fight for 7 minutes and veronica was already so anxious about what she would do without her. veronica had lived 16 and a half years without cheryl and as soon as she just waltzes into her life, veronica is suddenly lost without her. that was so unfair. how come cheryl didn't get to feel that way? over on the other side of the car, looking all emotionless, unfeeling...

but now veronica knew that wasn't true. she had thought it had been true in the car ride, at the party, and she had tried to push away all those feelings that tugged at her, telling her she was in love with cheryl. she had thought cheryl was a heartless bitch who didn't deserve anything, but she hadn't really felt that way. she was just so confused, cheryl had been such a good person during the half a year that they had known each other. how could she just change her personality just like that? veronica couldn't decide if she was letting go of the nice, innocent girl facade or putting up a mean, bitchy one. it had been hard to decide. but now she knew, cheryl was a good person put into bad situations. yes, she hadn't handled it well but veronica didn't judge. cheryl had been trying to get better. so she slipped up, that's better than just not trying at all. right?

should she go and kiss cheryl? should she stay home and wait for another moment? should she stay or should she go? veronica thought to herself, trying to concentrate and make a decision but then got distracted singing 'should i stay or should i go' by the clash. she hummed the tune and danced around her room. she totally forgot about her cheryl problem and started jamming out, cranking up her favorite songs (which were a mix of various musicals and 80's music), grabbing a hairbrush, dancing like taylor swift in 'you belong with me'. 

she got so lost in the music until a thought popped into her mind. god i wish cheryl were here to dance with me, she makes everything so amazing. even things that are all already amazing, she makes them  even more amazing. she's amazing. veronica stopped. back to her problem. should she go and kiss cheryl? it sucked, veronica's procrastination skills were on point, but her decision making skills? not as much. unless it was about procrastinating. she usually chose that option if it was available. stop getting so distracted. veronica scolded herself. "you have to choose. go, walk up to cheryl's house, kiss her and live happily ever after, or stay here and be sad?" she said. veronica was leaning towards the second option, until she hear a voice.

"choose the first." veronica tensed up, she had thought she was alone. she was going to look up when she remembered. she knew that voice. oh no, oh no no no no no no no. not now! she mentally facepalmed, and forced herself to look up at a familiar red headed beauty.

"i came here a few minutes ago." cheryl smiled. "your mom opened the door and told me i could just go right up to your room. i heard music playing. didn't want to interrupt you."

"well, now i'm embarrassed." veronica said, cheeks turning a salmon pink, looking away.

"don't be, that's actually why i came here. i.. feel the same way." cheryl said quietly, almost a whisper.

"you... what?" veronica's eyes shot back to cheryl. she stared at her hopefully, feeling more confident by the second. cheryl looked down, suddenly very interested in her hands.

"yeah, i mean, at first i thought it was just because i hadn't had a friend in literal years, but then..." she was cut off by veronica, who was suddenly not sitting on the bed, but was in cheryl's arms, hands gripping her face, kissing her. cheryl was surprised. she broke the kiss, and stared at veronica in shock. veronica caught her breath.

"was that okay? i didn't mean to make you uncomfortable, i just-" this time it was her turn to be cut off. cheryl pulled her back in for a kiss, hands on her back, veronica's arms resting on cheryl's shoulders.

"wow." veronica breathed through the kiss. cheryl smiled, and they broke the contact. they stared at each other's eyes, both filled with complete utter happiness. "you are amazing."

"why thank you. by the way, was that some justin bieber i heard? sorry?" cheryl laughed, fake judging her.

"leave me alone you bully! i can like whatever i want!" veronica smacked cheryl lightly on the cheek and pulled away.

"nooo i was liking that hug! come backkk" veronica crossed her arms.

"not until you apologize." cheryl rolled her eyes.

"fine, im sorry. now come back and hug me." so she did, and they did. and it was the best moment of their lives so far. finally, as they held each other, they felt safe, and it was good feeling. hopefully one of many more.

[hey guys i hope you liked this part,, yes ik wow i do pretty good filler chapters, but things will probably happen within the next 3 chapters. actually, that's what i said in chapter 14 or smth and it took 5 chapters chapters so lets say within 8 chapters. bai, love y'all]