Perrie's Dilemma

Chapter 5

Well here is it guys haha sorry it's took while only got my laptop back :) hope you enjoy!!

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I woke up in the morning I didn't know where I was but a few seconds later I remembered what happened I turned round and saw him lying there asleep. I suddenly felt so guilty I don't want to hurt him it was obvious he liked me and I'm messing with his head. I had to get out of here. I got out of bed slowly and quietly so I wouldn't wake him I picked up my clothes and got changed and then left. I walked back to my room remembered why I did it in the first place Leigh-Anne, I no longer felt mad I was more upset but I felt so guilty for doing what I did with Zayn, don't get me wrong it was amazing but I'm not even interested in guys and I'm giving him false hope.

I suddenly didn't feel well all I wanted to do was hide and cry. I got back to my dorm and got in the shower I just let the hot water run down me hoping it would wash away my problems but my mind was such a mess I couldn't stop thinking of Leigh-Anne how much I like her I much I want her but knowing I will never have her and Zayn feeling so guilty for sleeping with him and giving him false hope and then sneaking out before he woke up. It was all to much I didn't think it would affect me this much. it felt like it was all happening all over again and the tears just came pouring and I just fell to the floor the water still running down me. Its times like this I need my mum she always knows what to say I wish she was here.

I got out the shower and got changed it was only 9am and I had a lecture in an hour but I didn't feel like going I cant face Leigh-Anne or Zayn. I needed to be alone my head was a mess and I wouldn't be able to concentrate anyway.

I went to my big blue bag under my bed that had some off my DVD's in that I brought looking for my favourite film and I found it.."BRAVE HEART". When I'm down I watch this film it makes me feel a bit better because I get so lost in the story. I got my blanket and got something to eat and was about to put the DVD on when I heard a knock at the door. It was Leigh-Anne and Jesy. I froze.

"Perrie you there we're going to be late" Jesy shouted. I didn't reply.

"PERRIE"

"guess she's not there" Leigh-Anne said.

I suddenly got a lump in my throat. I heard them walk away and waited for a few seconds then went to open the door to check if they'd gone, they had. Hearing Leigh-Anne's voice made me realise how much I miss her I really wanted to see her but I couldn't face her after what happened last night with the kiss and then Zayn. I know I've only know her a few days but a part of me feels empty when I'm not with her.

The film finished and I looked at my phone I hadn't checked it since last night. I had a missed call and 3 texts from Jesy and 4 missed calls and 4 texts from Leigh and 1 text from Zayn

Jesy:-

"morning me and Leigh will come and get you at 9:30 xxxxx"

"Perrie where are you me and Leigh came to your room but no one answered guess you stayed at Zayn's last night ;) see you in class and you tell us all about it xxxx"

"Perrie where the hell are you Zayn said you left before he woke up text me back babe xxxx"

Leigh-Anne:-

"Perrie look I'm sorry about what happened last night we need to talk xxxxxxx"

"Perrie please reply I'm sorry let me explain I'll speak to you in class yeah xxxxxxx"

"where are you? Let me know your ok xxxxxxxx"

"perrie I miss you and I'm sorry please don't ignore me why aren't you In classxxxxx"