Perrie's Dilemma

Chapter 24

I watched Perries reaction as I said those words. No matter how many times I say it to myself it never seems real, like it never actually happened me but it did and I have the mental scars to prove it. A few minutes went by and she still hadnt said anything.

"say something" I begged

"i-i dont know what to say" I could see her eyes filling with tears.

"im sorry"

"what you sorry for"

"for everything"

"hey you having nothing to be sorry for okay" she said pulling me into a hug.

"I should have told you sooner but I try and forget about it and then I start to get intimit like before and I just freak out I try and get past it but its always there" I cried and cuddled closer into Perrie, her scent and touch calming me down.

"its okay shhh"

We stayed like that for what seemed like hours just enjoying each others company.

"you wanna talk about it?" Perrie asked.

"no but you need to know" I sighed.

"you dont have to babe I'm not gonna force you"

"your not" I took a deep breath.

"basically it happened about 5 months ago, there was this guy who I met on a night out and he got a bit obsessed with me and I kept telling him to leave me alone but he wouldnt have any of it,One night I was walking home from work and he suddenly appeared out of nowhere and he wouldnt leave me alone and he started to get aggressive and next thing I know he pulled me into a ally and yeah you know what happened next" I could feel the tears falling down my face at the memory.

"shh you dont have to do this"

"I didnt tell anyone at first but then I missed my period and I got worried so I went to the doctor and it turned out I was pregnant, I kept it to myself for a while but I couldnt take it anymore so I told my mum everything and she made me go to the police they arrested him and hes in jail now, my mum said that whatever I decide to do with the baby she would support me but I couldnt keep it, I couldnt bring a child into this world to know there father is a rapist and that was how they were conceived it wouldnt be far so I got rid of it, I killed it Perrie" I couldnt hold back anymore as the tears came out like waterfalls.

"shhh its okay, you did what was best dont hate yourself for it, i dont really know what else to say because nothing I'll say will make it better but I love you Jade so much nothing is ever going to change that, we will take it slow okay at your pace"

"I love you to so much" I replied.

Knowing that I had Perrie at my side is going to help me get through this and thats what I need otherwise its going to consume me.

Perrie POV

I couldnt believe what Jade has just told me. I cant believe someone would do such a thing to her shes incredible. The thought that someone could do that to the person I love makes me feel physically sick. Also the fact that she had to make a really tough decision at such a young age that she has to live with for the rest of her life is horrifc. I dont know what to say to her Ive never been in that situation before and I know that no matter what I say nothing will ease her pain all I can do is be there for her and show her how much I love her.

"i'll always be here for you, you know that right?" I asked

"yeah babe I know"

"can I ask you something"

"yeah"

"does Sam know"

"yep"

"oh"

"yeah well I couldnt tell him about the baby only you and my mum know about that, but he was my rock when I went through it because I was with him at the time, he was always patient when it came to being intimit he never pressured me we never did get like that again thought because every time things got heated Id freak out like I did earlier, he really did love me and I still love him but when I saw you it was like love at first sight and I knew that I wanted to be with you not Sam, thats why it hurts so much that he hates me after everything we've been through"

It took me a few moments to digest her words, I wish I was the one to be there for her when it happened, I guess i'm still glad that she had someone there for her but just wish it was me.

"ah right and i'm sure he doesnt hate you hes probably just hurt because of it all, i'm sure he will come round" I said trying to comfort her.

"yeah I guess its just I havent even seen him since I got back and its been weeks, I know hes still here so he must be avoiding me, I need to fix it"

"I know babe but just give him time you guys went through a lot its gonna take him time"

"yeah I hope your right"

"i am" I smiled and leaned in and kissed her.

"lets watch a film you pick" I said

"okay, frozen" Jade beamed, her smiles just melts my heart.

We put the film on as Jade cuddled into me, this it was I live for moments like this that are perfect. My mind wouldnt stop thinking of what Jade told me, it angers me that someone could do that yeah hes in prison but he'll get out sooner or later whoever this guy is best run when he does.

"Jade, what is he called yano that guy"

"Jack Spires"

My heart dropped I suddenly felt myself go cold and my body tense.

"babe you okay" I could hear the worry in her voice.

"thats Katherines brother"

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