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Richies pov

After 10 years I finally see my mom but of course it has to be like this, I thought as I sat in the hospital with Eddie.

Maggie was put into surgery and Eddie and I waited in the waiting room. It has been about an hour and Eddie fell asleep on my shoulder. I had nothing else to do but just look at my phone.

The sounds of the beeping machines and the sound of wheels rolling against the ground my heart beat faster and anxiety grow in my chest.

My mind was filled with what ifs, what if she her surgery goes wrong, what if she doesn't want to see me?

"Maggie Tozier?", the doctor said stepping out and looking around.

I immediately rose up to my feet and Eddie woke up and stood up also.

"Y-Yeah?", I said walking to him.
"Follow me", the doctor said as he walked through the doors that led to the hallway with all the patients room.

I followed close behind while holding Eddie's hand.  The doctor led us to Maggie's room and before the door he said, "Maggie went through an hour surgery and she has a broken rib and a concussion, so be careful and don't get her heart rate high".

I nodded and walked in, Maggie head immediately went up and looked at us. I froze, it's been years, 10 years, I missed her.

I walked slowly to here and choked out, "m-mom". I pulled her into a gentle hug and said, "I miss you mom", while still hugging her.

Something felt different, she didn't hug back, I pulled off of her and looked at her with my heart broken. She tilted her head to side and said, "do I know you?".

My heart felt like it was torn and I stepped back a little in shock. "M-mom I'm y-your son", I said completely astonished.

Then she looked at me and it seemed like the memory's flashed in her head. She blinked a little and rubs her eyes. "R-Richie is that really you, I'm sorry the doctors said when I hit my head I would experience memory loss".

I tear ran down my face and pulled her into another hug, "yes mom it's me", I said softly.

She hugged back. All the lose and all the disappointment seemed to heal. The hug lasted what it seemed like for ages. Just to feel her arms around me, was even better than Eddie's.

I pulled away and looked at her and wiped my tear, "why are you even here?".
"I heard about your dad..and I knew he was like this so I wanted to bring you back to California with me".

I looked at her no sure what to say, "when?".
"I was thinking after I get out of the hospital", she said.

I looked at Eddie out side the room then at her and back at Eddie.

"I would love to..but I-I can't mom", I said while looking down.
"What why?", she asked.
"I-I have a boyfriend and I love him and I can't leave him", I said still looking down.
"So you choose your boyfriend over family, Richie I don't want you to live your dad, he's dangerous".

My heart tore of what I was going to do. The what if's came back. My heart was longing to stay with Eddie but I also wanted to be with my mom. "Why can't you just stay here", I said as I looked at her".
"Richie I can't do that, my house is in California and I can't move back here", she replied.
My head tilted to side and I said, "why did you even leave me in the first place, you left me with a abusive man that I am ashamed to say my dad", I said angrily.
"Richie..you were an accident..we fault about if we should get a abortion and I refused. I wanted to keep you but your dad refused to take care of you. When you were born..I couldn't trust myself, I couldn't do it so I gave you to your father, trusting him at the time. Now that I thought about it, it was grave mistake, I'm sorry, I really I am.", she said.

I didn't know what to say, I looked at her and bit my lip unknowing what I was gonna say.

"I'll give you time to think honey, but for now I just need rest, I'm sorry I had to lay this on you so fast", she said as she laid her hand on my hand.

I nodded and walked out looking down.

As soon as I walked out, Eddie stood up and looked at me, "what's wrong?", he asked.

I looked at him and said, "it's all to much to handle, I don't know what to do Ed's".

"What's to much to handle?", he asked as he softly held my hand. 

I explained what happened and Eddie said, "s-so are you leaving me?", he said as heart broke a little.

"I don't know to tell you, I need time to think", I said looking down.

He sniffed and wiped a tear and held both of my hands, "Richie whatever you do..I support it, even though you are my love my life and it'll destroy me..but whatever you do, just know I'll support you in it", he said as he looked at me.

I pulled him into a big hug and tears ran down my face, "Eddie whatever happens..I love you and I will love you forever".
He hugged back and said, "I love you too Richie Tozier".

My heart was torn, my thoughts were going a million miles per hour. I didn't know what to do.