My Lover is the Son of a Mafia Leader

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The last time Uncle got mad at me was when Anthony and I went to the playground to play that caused an almost accident. An accident that could have killed Anthony, I still blame myself sometimes but as I grew up, natutunan ko kung paano patawarin ang aking sarili.

Uncle provided me everything I have now and I'll be forever grateful because of that. Kung hindi dahil sa kanya siguro ay wala ako sa lugar ko ngayon, kahit na wala na ang mga magulang ko ay nandyan naman si Uncle Bern na ang turing sa akin ay tunay na anak.

I wanted him to be proud of me kaya I did my best to excel in everything I chose Business Law because of him too. Hindi nya naman sinabi sa akin kung ano ang dapat kung kunin at kailanman ay hindi kami diniktahan ni Uncle sa mga desisyon namin ni Anthony.

Naging supportive si Uncle Bern sa lahat ng bagay na ginagawa namin ni Anthony minsan nga eh sa tingin namin ay masyado syang naging supportive but we're not complaining, in fact we love it.

Uncle Bern is a tough man, hindi man sya laging nagku-kuwento tungkol sa ama ko pero alam kong masyadong nalungkot si Uncle noong mamatay ang kapatid nya. Minsan nga naisip ko hindi na nakapag-asawa si Uncle dahil sa amin ni Anthony kasi masyado nyang binuhos ang oras nya sa pag-aalaga sa amin.

We used to joke about it. Anthony and I often tease him to go on blind dates because we're on the right age and we can now take care of ourselves. But Uncle only smiled at us and said, "I have you two. That's enough"

But there's something scary about him too, he never yells when he's angry the last time he did was during Anthony's almost accident and most of the time he's just calm.

I think there are two types of people when they're angry: one, a volcano. Some people are just like volcanoes, they express their anger by a fit of rage, destroying things and sometimes hard to calm down. They release their anger by outbursts, sometimes too hysterical. But when they realize they're wrong, they apologize and promise not to be angry again.

Second, the brewer. Ever tried brewing a coffee? What happens when you kept brewing coffee beyond a certain time?

It gets bitter, too bitter to drink and cannot be sweetened with sugar or honey anymore. It's similar to a person. When a person holds onto negative emotions, these emotions keep on brewing. It makes the person bitter.

The longer they hold onto these negative emotions, the greater the bitterness. For me, the brewer is dangerous because they kept their waves of anger into the heart and unable for them to let go. Think of a fireplace, the wood burning in it can warm up a whole house in cold nights but when misdirected it can burn a whole house.

Similarly, people who don't know how to handle their anger or emotional state, it can take a fiercer form.

And as of this moment, I don't know if Uncle Bern is a volcano or the brewer.

"I'm so disappointed on you, Skyla," he said it almost so quietly I could have missed it.

Anthony stayed quiet at the other side of Uncle Bern's office. Alam ko na may gusto syang sabihin pero he's holding himself back. We're inside Uncle Bern's personal office, he's sitting in his chair and looking at me with an expression I can't read.

Kung pwede lang maihi sa kinatatayuan ko ay kanina ko pa nagawa dahil sa takot. I'm scared of the things he's going to say next. I still don't know why I'm here. I wonder if this is about being MIA for almost a day and a half or something else?

"What were you doing with Ivo Moretti,?" is it possible to choke without eating?

"How did you--?" I asked almost breathless, "know about that?"